- Jul 16, 2020
My son is 23. I wish I would have found him help at a young age. He says from the time he was 8 he wanted to die. He's mad at me for bringing him into the world, instead of aborting him. This is the most painful thing for a mother to hear. He's cynical about everything in his life. He's dominating of my home and time. Completely narcissistic and spewing anger and resentment. He lived solely with me and at 11 he went to live with his father. Who I did not know was a drunk and physically abused him. He moved back in with me at 18 and stayed until I kicked him out at 21. I have younger children and he was taking over every room and his younger brother of two yrs hates him. So it was stress to have him live her. He's bitter and hurt I don't want him living with me. But he's 23 and he's inconsiderate, does drugs, and drinks nonstop. I have a 17 and 11 yr old that need a stable, livable home. He's homeless and sleeping on my couch again. He's bitter that I kicked him out and angry I don't want him living here. Last night he told me he doesn't want to live anymore. He's always talking about how great death is. I am actually to the point of frustration. Because it's how he sees life and his life. I feel at my wit's end. I don't think I have the energy for him anymore which sounds awful. He yells and starts fights with me and I'm trying to not have stress. I'm having physical problems now, due to too much stress for so long. I told him he needs counseling. He only wants to wallow in pain, and tell at everyone about it. Maybe there are support lines for mother's to know how to handle kids with suicidal thoughts. I just don't know how to handle him or what even to say anymore, nothing works.