- Nov 10, 2019
Im already a member of AA so i guess im used to finally admitting stuff. Hi. My names Tomo and I have BPD and its got worse since i stopped drinking nearly 2 years ago. Im in a relationship with someone whom i dearly love. But.... i "dump" her nearly every month, have a melt down, want to top myself, send nasty texts, hound her, get distraut that ive lost her. But hey up tomo what did you expect? You dumped her !! Now i want her back when ive suffered enough emotional pain ( which is intense trust me). Luckily for me shes a councillor but its taking ots toll on her now. I love her so much but im going to loose her soon. Ive started to see a therapist as well as attending loafs of aa meetings. Im 58 and fed up with this horrible illness.