I'm not here to exagerate a one-sided story that demonizes my mother. She has always been a single mother and I love and appreciate everything she's done as any son should. I have my faults to with having ADHD and moodswings. What won't be denied is that my mother use to hit us, pull our hair, tell us she hates us and pushed us on hard floor when we were little. Like from age 4ish-16 years old. She doesn't anymore because we're both grown, I'm taller and my sister has more muscle. Mother mother never denies the things she did, she's apologizes but also says things like "You cannot hold that against me forever" before we even bring it up. When I was 10 I remember having her face super close to mine while she was flipping out and she spat on me. Idk why, it felt worse than getting hit. My grandmother abused her and was way worse, so there's that. She doesn't hit us anymore but she still screams at us, sometimes its the first thing we hear when we wakeup in the morning. It gives me major anticpatory anxiety being around her and when she actually starts to flip out, my sister and I walk around her instead of past her and as passengers in the car we'll flinch. She gets offended and says "Quit treating me like I'm a monster !". I remember she was getting irrated at an appointment with a psycholigist and he called her out on her bullshit, she started to cry. My sister had a counselor who didn't like my mom and she snarled "What did you tell her". I'm going on a tangent. My point is that it bothers me that my mother gets angry for a mere reflex that was created by her in the first place.