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My mind has shut down...

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The Lone Dragon

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...or at least slowed down.

My thoughts, behaviour and responses are all slowed. Like I am not thinking.

I am too tired for opinions.

My life has become bland.

I am boring, stupid, and a waste of time. I feel numb, not down, not up, not anything, I just do not feel.

In my world, I no longer associate with emotion, and it is too rational, it is boring, it is bland.

I do not achieve, I do not succeed, I am tired all the time but cannot fall asleep easily, this isn't what I have been like for a while, but even then; not like this.

Before, when I could feel, I had emotion. Now I am just a bag of skin and bones; less emotion than your average robot.

I am nothing...

I am leaving a medication, but even this glimmer of hope fails to give me a feeling.

My life has become grey.
 
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OrangeCrush

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I have found for me that when changing meds, I am in quite a strange place, cannot trust what my mind is telling me....

I am sorry to hear that you are in this place. :(
 
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amber1

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I understand the feeling of numbness and exhaustion...it's hard for me to contribute intelligently to a conversation these days. I relate to your post, but you have felt differently in the past and hopefully you will again in the future lone dragon.
 
Purple Chaos

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Hi TLD,

Sorry to hear you've been feeling this way. I hope that things have improved for you over the past few days. How are you feeling now?
 
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purple_elephants

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Dragon,

I wish my brain would just STFU to tell you the truth. I have the opposite problem, but have had the mind-numbing, can't think drudge as well.

I agree with the others; have you had a change of meds that could've caused these feelings, or lack there of? Also, severe apathy can be a sign of depression. Do you think that you are taking a turn down the dark rabbit hole of depression?

Whatever the cause/ reason, I hope that you feel better. Maybe you should call you pdoc and tell them what you told us? I know it is hard to do so, getting the energy/ care to call, but they might be able to help.
 
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The Lone Dragon

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I have now started to 'feel' again....

I am fortunately away from this place in which I once was. And hopefully it will be (at least) a long time before my next visit.

Thank you all, for all the support.

I can often hardly understand myself, let alone expect others to understand me, so thank you for the sincere, and kind responses.

Purple Chaos; I am now feeling quite a lot better, as though my mind can breathe again, and peace has been restored. I can now look forward instead of being ever stuck in a fleeting moment.

purple_elephants, yes, I can see where you are coming from. But it can be so hard to visualise opposites when at either end - if you see what I mean?

Honestly, I really am grateful for all your kind responses...

TLD
 
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I'm glad things have improved and that peace has been restored. It all sounds good. I hope you're continuing to make progress and I wish you well.
 
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