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Ozzydo

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Hi everyone...

Im a 19 year old male suffering from serve depression, OCD and anxiety and have been for a very long time, so i thought i would share my story as i'm sure it can help others even though i'm only at the beginning of my journey.... Simply i just want to help others now to prevent them getting in to the situation i'm in now...

At the age 13 OCD arrived which i found very hard to deal with due to the fact it was a checking form or OCD in my case if i didn’t touch or check something in a curtain way my head would tell me something bad would happen for example i would fail all my GCSE’s.

I got help for the OCD and started therapy for around 6 mouths while trying to study and have some sort of social life which was pretty difficult however i cracked it and the amount of checking i did reduced massively…. So i now was feeling better and pretty much OCD free i concentrated on school and trying to have a more social life so i started playing cricket again.

So a few years past with a few OCD bad spells but i was able to deal with them and get through it… Then my mother got ill with severe depression due to bringing me up and doing her best for me, so while my mother was getting treatment i had look after my self and my mum i did all the cooking, shopping ect, This was all while i was starting to take my GCSE’s. I did all this for about two years until my mum was able to cope and to start her life again. The only time i was able to get away from it all was playing cricket every Saturday, so that gave me something to enjoy and focus on rather than worrying and looking after mum.

I got my all GCSE’s done and then did a year of sixth-form, then left and started a aeronautical engineering course at college i completed the first year and made lots of great friends, then during the autumn of 2013 the OCD got massively worse which made me worry about everything as the OCD was intrusive thoughts which made me worry and think that if i did or got anything wrong something else would happen for example if i failed my college course i would die or a member of family would die. This made me give up the only thing that kept me going which was cricket every weekend to get a break from it all but i couldn’t even cope with that anymore which made me realise how actually bad my OCD intrusive thoughts are.

I would have these thoughts every day at night keeping me awake and in the end couldn’t cope with them so i went away to Perth, Australia for 6 weeks to try and get away to maybe see if it would make me any better…… But guess what… It didn’t.

So i came home for the new year and while i was away my mother moved out with her new husband in a new house which now would be my home miles away from the rest of my family and the only few friends i had due to my condition which had stopped me socialising, i also had to move jobs and try and build a new future for my self there not what i was really ready for.

So the months past with the really bad OCD and then about March 2014 i started to feel very depressed as i wasn’t going out and i just ended up staying in all day. I still pushed on going to college to make sure i got my qualifications even though felling unwell and not wanting to be around anymore. To add to the pressure every Friday i would have to go to work straight after college then drive 2 hours back down to see my mum while i staying near college and then have to go and work on Sunday and drive all the way back to college.

I am now no longer living at my mums as the situation wasn’t working out as was just making me feel worse so living with other family members while i try to get better, i have not been out for a drink or socialise for about 10 months now and i play no more cricket and get suicidal thoughts all because of depression

But i finally got help and am just at the start of it process of getting better i have been diagnosed with severe depression and OCD.

Thanks
Ross :)
 
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Purple Chaos

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Hi Ross

Depression can have such an impact on every part of our lives and those around us. You have good insight in to your illness and I think this will help your road to recovery.

Just wanted to wish you well on your journey. My main advice would be to accept any help you are offered but you certainly seem to be heading in the right direction.

By the way, welcome to the forum. I hope you find it of some value.
 
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Hey Ross it's been lovely to read your share. Welcome to the forum.
From what you've posted, I admire your strength dealing with your situation at your age. The start of your therapy sounds great and I am happy that you are in the process of making things better for yourself again.
Good to meet you. :)
 
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Welcome to the forum, and thanks for sharing your story. I'm sure many here can relate.
Hope that things start to pick up and you can live a more fulfilling life soon. x
 
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