A
areback
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- May 22, 2009
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Hi I'm 20 something and just don't know how to be happy anymore. When I wake up I normally see my dad listening to music while hes doing the breakfast and i can see how happy he is. It really gets me down, as a kid i was always happy and now I'm not. I don't seem depressed but I'm just not happy.
I also have anxiety problems, I can't stand being around confident people because I'm worried about what they will say to me because I'm embarrassed about my life. I never go out to do activities arranged by friends because of the anxiety. I have tried many times because I'm told my anxiety will get better, but it just gets worse as I get more and more bad experiences and just find it stressful because I have IBS. Going out at night is just a big no for me.
I try to do activities, cycling, badminton, running but I don't seem to get hardly any enjoyment out of them. Even listening to music offers next to no enjoyment. It's weird I'm just not really interested in anything to any extent.
I'm unintelligent and find it hard to have conversations with people, I just find it impossible to chat away like people do so I end up saying next to nothing. Which is frustrating because it seems thats like one of the joys of life.
I haven't worked for 3 years since I became unwell with schizophrenia. I'm encouraged to work voluntary but I just find it stressful. The things i find stressful is the IBS and when I try to do a task I get OCD symptoms and just generally worry about everything.
I can drive but find it so anxiety provoking its almost not even worth it. I don't know what runs through my head. I think I'm so worried about if I were to have an accident and wouldn't know what to say.
I have thought about ending my life but deep down I know I could never do that. I just really don't know what to do to improve my life?
I also have anxiety problems, I can't stand being around confident people because I'm worried about what they will say to me because I'm embarrassed about my life. I never go out to do activities arranged by friends because of the anxiety. I have tried many times because I'm told my anxiety will get better, but it just gets worse as I get more and more bad experiences and just find it stressful because I have IBS. Going out at night is just a big no for me.
I try to do activities, cycling, badminton, running but I don't seem to get hardly any enjoyment out of them. Even listening to music offers next to no enjoyment. It's weird I'm just not really interested in anything to any extent.
I'm unintelligent and find it hard to have conversations with people, I just find it impossible to chat away like people do so I end up saying next to nothing. Which is frustrating because it seems thats like one of the joys of life.
I haven't worked for 3 years since I became unwell with schizophrenia. I'm encouraged to work voluntary but I just find it stressful. The things i find stressful is the IBS and when I try to do a task I get OCD symptoms and just generally worry about everything.
I can drive but find it so anxiety provoking its almost not even worth it. I don't know what runs through my head. I think I'm so worried about if I were to have an accident and wouldn't know what to say.
I have thought about ending my life but deep down I know I could never do that. I just really don't know what to do to improve my life?