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matthewxyz
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My memory is awful so I’m trying to piece together my past and pull some dates together.. what I realised is my life essentially stopped at 17 (2007). I know I still went out with “friends” and used alcohol and drugs to numb my sadness, depression and lack of motivation, but in terms of my life on paper, education etc.. 3 months into 17 is when it stops and it doesn’t start again until I was 21 (2011)
17 is so young.. SO young. Why wasn’t anyone there to save me? I just sunk further and further into depression until I stopped leaving my house age 18 (2008) I spent all of 18 and 19 trapped in my house, not leaving my room, abusing myself with eating disorders hoping it would kill me. I tried to on my 20th birthday (2010). I didn’t want to go into my 20’s in the state that I was in..
Now I’m turning 30 this year and I’m still hurt and broken, albeit in a better situation than back then, but I can’t let go of all the pain I endured back then and I still don’t know why no one thought to save that 17 year old kid I was and put him on the right track.
17 is so young.. SO young. Why wasn’t anyone there to save me? I just sunk further and further into depression until I stopped leaving my house age 18 (2008) I spent all of 18 and 19 trapped in my house, not leaving my room, abusing myself with eating disorders hoping it would kill me. I tried to on my 20th birthday (2010). I didn’t want to go into my 20’s in the state that I was in..
Now I’m turning 30 this year and I’m still hurt and broken, albeit in a better situation than back then, but I can’t let go of all the pain I endured back then and I still don’t know why no one thought to save that 17 year old kid I was and put him on the right track.