• Welcome! It’s great to see you.

    If you'd like to talk with people who know what it's like

    Our forum members are people, maybe like yourself, who experience mental health difficulties or who have had them at some point in their life.

My life falling apart every second...

Angels

Angels

Well-known member
Joined
May 29, 2010
Messages
2,461
Location
Oblivion
So Ive been feeling really physically tired. after the overdose incident, being rushed off my feet with psychologists, key workers, therapists, early intervention team ... as well as ajusting to my new meds. its all just crazy and i can feel it gathering up and weighing me down.
Ive not been sleeping alot at all because when i do finally get to sleep i have nightmares.
As im only 15, ive never been on any type of medication to do with mental health... being slapped up with rispersiodone isnt very plesant.. i get alot of headaches.
I just dont know if i want to carry all this on. its all one huge burden. i think of my life as go to school >> come home >> sleep (which i cant even do... so its just one big void) .. I have some days off school because im in too much pain physically and mentally. im just so tired all of my joints ache. I cant leave the house because of my anxiety.
Ive started seeing things in my room too. ( i know im going on, but i guess i just need to talk about it) My parents say there their for me but there not. im getting very paraniod. i just want to curl up and sleep and never ever wake up from this endless nightmare. my lifes been really screwed up.
Pfft i though this year was going to be a good new year.. its been the worst one of my life.
My meds dont work, i cant stand seeing so many people that cant actually help me, i hate talking about lots of things but i have to, i have to put on an act all the time when i do go out in public (and in school which is the worst) because i dont want to be labeled as some sort of 'crazy person' because people my age and all other teenagers can just be so cruel. im out of place.
i want to belong. it will never happen. im getting worse every single day.

what to do next.. hopefully i will find out soon enough
Thanks for reading
/sigh :cry:
 
D

DELATEXT

Guest
It is terrible to be burdened so young with this amount of pressure,
you are not crazy just ill, I was very saddened to hear you over dosed ??
The Medics are trying to help you but I can understand how you feel overwhelmed by it all.
Try talking to them and express your worries and fears so that they can help you ??
As for the Bullies, there are always curs who will iry to inflict pain if you let them ??
You need to progress slowly and effectively towards getting to a better place within yourself ??:grouphug::grouphug:
 
BORTU

BORTU

Well-known member
Joined
Jun 4, 2010
Messages
1,449
Location
SW England
Hi Angels,

Read your story, so sorry. But as DELATEXT says talk to your carers and hang in there. It CAN get better. I was bullied and picked on in school because I dared to be different. You are yourself, a very special person. We all wish you good feelings.
 
D

DELATEXT

Guest
Wishing you a continued recovery and remember you are special, so take it easy and rest !!
 
Angels

Angels

Well-known member
Joined
May 29, 2010
Messages
2,461
Location
Oblivion
Thanks everyone, Things are just getting hard and i guess i dont want it. but i just dont see myself progressing. il try though and see what happens. people that feel the need to bully others are just not worth my time. I really apprechiate the kind words!!
xxxx hannah xx
 
Sophie

Sophie

Well-known member
Joined
Feb 20, 2009
Messages
3,214
Location
Spain
Hi Angels,
just read your post, my heart goes out to you. It is terrible suffering from depression, but even worse at your age. I know you wont believe this, but you will come through all of this, and be stronger. When I had depression, I was very paranoid and made my husbands life hell, it is another symptom of depression. Please don't think about overdosing, you are loved by so many people. Keep posting on here, and if you need to ask anything, I'm sure someone will try to help you. :hug:
 
Similar threads
Thread starter Title Forum Replies Date
S Depressed no confidence or hope in life. Depression Forum 6
S Internet and real life bullying is the same - what is wrong with me? Depression Forum 13
DistantOcean My life just got even worse Depression Forum 7
HappiestSeason Why is life easy for some people? Depression Forum 17
L did the first half of your life go by faster or slower than the last half? Depression Forum 12
H A feel like im lossing my life away. Depression Forum 6
C My life story Depression Forum 4
MeAndMyDepression What's the top change you'd like to see in your life? Depression Forum 35
F I daydream so much that it affects every aspect of my life Depression Forum 4
Z Depression is destroying my life Depression Forum 16
K I feel like I'm lost in life Depression Forum 12
Black_Sheep95 Lost my drive in Life Depression Forum 5
C I find life too difficult Depression Forum 11
D I ruined my life Depression Forum 13
A This life thing Depression Forum 3
H Why can't anyone stay in my life? Depression Forum 20
Hardknocks88 just life. Depression Forum 5
T Exhausted by Life. Depression Forum 8
B Life is a sick joke at this point Depression Forum 48
A I feel disconnected with life Depression Forum 7
E Fucked up my life and see no way out Depression Forum 6
A Can you just back off a bit, please life!? Depression Forum 9
M Living a double life, being depressed and having to fake not Depression Forum 8
S I feel like my life is some sort if sick joke and I'm fed up of living it Depression Forum 39
B I want to end my life so bas Depression Forum 39
M So tired of life Depression Forum 1
S i truly hate my life more than anything else Depression Forum 12
L No zest for life. Depression Forum 10
G Why does life hate me? Depression Forum 5
L Life Depression Forum 17
L Every day life feels like entrapment Depression Forum 4
M Why is life so hard Depression Forum 9
J Need life help, my story. (sorry) Depression Forum 7
G My life is over Depression Forum 7
G life update: it gets better Depression Forum 2
V I should have grown up. Now I am 30 years old with no direction in life and no clear decisions. Depression Forum 8
L Unmotivated in life, feel like a failure. Depression Forum 13
L Are there any positives to life? Depression Forum 22
G Depressed looking at my life Depression Forum 2
cascityrosesimpson i hate my life Depression Forum 22
B Depressed/ hopeless about life..... anyone wanna message me? Depression Forum 5
N Life getting tough again Depression Forum 6
C Tired of home life Depression Forum 2
Hardknocks88 How much life sucks. Depression Forum 6
T Ex boyfriend ruined my life Depression Forum 3
JustinS1998 Wanting to Give Up on Life Depression Forum 19
H I am sick of life Depression Forum 16
C Kinda not seeing a point in life anymore Depression Forum 17
M Why do people always say that "life is precious"? Depression Forum 9
D my life is going in a downward spiral Depression Forum 3

Similar threads

Top