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My Grief is Killing Me

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TiffanyRose

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I lost my sister to a tragic death a few months ago, It was unexpected and a huge shock. My sister was my everything, she was my protector, my bestfriend and someone I always looked up too. I have always battled with depression but I am at an all time low right now. I'm having a hard time finding the purpose of life and often think about ending it all. I haven't laughed or smiled since she died, when she left she took me with her too. I keep asking why, why did this happen? I'm living in a real life nightmare that I won't ever wake up from.
 
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Hi TiffanyRose,
I'm ever so sorry for your loss, we're here for you.
I lost my dad, so I know what grief feels like.
Do you have any support?
Your sister would want you to be happy.
Sending hugs.
 
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Just remember she would want to see u move forward and embrace life. You are lucky to live and you deserve it. You would want the same for her if the opposite happened. There will never be a good reason that this happened but you need to accept reality and just give it time and love your self as she loved u.
 
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I see you are in Canada, do they have a service like we do here called CRUSE? Its a charity which helps specifically with grief and is brilliant. I used them when my husband died and I couldn't move on.

Grief is agony and there is no quick way through it. Why don't you tell us about her, if that wouldn't hurt too much. How did she die? I am so sorry you are suffering like this, but I totally understand.
 
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My father died last year one night when I was dosing off to sleep he said, " forgive me " and I have had other such experiences with others . I know now death isn't real people just move on to where ever . You can ask for your sister let you know she is alright maybe you wont hear her , but maybe a bird will pass by you or a butterfly to let you know. I sometimes imagine a calm still beautiful lake like the kind in Canada and the person is there with me seems very real .
 
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TiffanyRose

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Hi TiffanyRose,
I'm ever so sorry for your loss, we're here for you.
I lost my dad, so I know what grief feels like.
Do you have any support?
Your sister would want you to be happy.
Sending hugs.
I do have some support but it's always been just me and my sister. My mother lives away and my father battles with addictions. Just such a lonely feeling.
 
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TiffanyRose

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I see you are in Canada, do they have a service like we do here called CRUSE? Its a charity which helps specifically with grief and is brilliant. I used them when my husband died and I couldn't move on.

Grief is agony and there is no quick way through it. Why don't you tell us about her, if that wouldn't hurt too much. How did she die? I am so sorry you are suffering like this, but I totally understand.
I go see a psychiatrist twice a week now. She was in an ATV accident. I had the cops show up at my house at 2:45 am to tell me she had passed away. She was the bravest most free spirited person I knew.
 
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My father died last year one night when I was dosing off to sleep he said, " forgive me " and I have had other such experiences with others . I know now death isn't real people just move on to where ever . You can ask for your sister let you know she is alright maybe you wont hear her , but maybe a bird will pass by you or a butterfly to let you know. I sometimes imagine a calm still beautiful lake like the kind in Canada and the person is there with me seems very real .
Im so sorry for your loss.I talk to her all the time and try to find her spiritually, I just miss her voice and laugh so much it kills me.
 
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