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My experience with BPD growing up

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Hypersexuality since young age (5) Having vivid dark and sexual dreams and liking them. Manipulating games played as children and always wanting to play house or school so you and your friend could mess around. Enacting inappropriate scenes with my toys. Wrote a full page sex letter to a neighboring kid across from my apartment and leaving it under his door mat. (His mom called cps on my mom but nothing came from it) The going to sleep easier by fantasizing sexual scenarios in my head. Looking up porn online and talking to strangers in chat rooms cyber sex.

Expert liar. I started lieing at a very young age and was very good at it. I usually only lied to keep myself from getting in trouble. I'd hurt my little sister somehow doing something I shouldn't be doing and when mom was called I would blame it on her and watch her get the punishment with no remorse just relief.

Starting stealing before 10. I stole lunch money right out of backpacks in grade school. Would sneak and steal craft supplies from my 2nd grade teacher and got caught. Took 100$ out of my moms bf wallet and went to school one time thinking I'd get away. Regularly stole from walmart as a child and even used my little sister to help get more stuff out. Got caught once and it humiliated me and I stopped for a long while after that.

I hated school. Every bit of it. Cheated whenever I could and never could pay attention resulting in me failing second grade. Never quite fit in with kids my age after that. Getting sent to the office for saying inappropriate things to peers.

Stealing matches and lighters to build fire with in fields and woods.

Copy and pasting people's personalities and quirks that I admired to use as my own identity in hope to garner the same admiration they recieved by our peers. After each fp, bff, or bf I had I adopted aspects of their personalities or interests and made them my own and continued to after we split or parted ways. Never having a thing of my own.

Forgetting things often/Never being able to take care of or keep up with anything. Of value or not. I used to always forget school library/txt books outside and it would be missing for days and when I eventually found it it had rained and damaged the book beyond repair and my mom had to pay a huge fee. I did this more often than I care to admit. Or it was my cheerleading shoes or something I needed regularly.

Since 5 I would get up after my mom went to sleep at night and stay up all night until the sun came up watching Mickey Mouse club etc
 
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Hello and welcome to the forum. I hope you will find support on here. :)
 
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Totally. Then knowing what kind of kid you were only makes you more embarrassed. Though I’m almost certain it was the event that made me that sad little kid. Ugh
Breaks my heart
 
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