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My emotions have confused me today.

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I have felt mostly numb and irritated whilst at work today.

Then at home, my emotions were great, almost utopian, as I played my guitar and taught myself some new songs.

After which I went for a drive and got super depressed, a particular song came on and then I realised how alone I was on that nightly drive. I felt despair, I had suicidal thoughts in my head, I felt directionless, confused about who I was and what I wanted from life. I was on the verge of tears but can never seem to cry out loud. It makes me feel like a robot.

I'm scared this is a pattern I am stuck in and in ten years I will be still bitching about the same problems, forever trying to climb out of the quicksand.

I wish I was going to bed in a better mood.
 
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Just wanted to say that I read your post and I'm very sorry you're feeling this way. :hug:
I hope that your mood improves.
 
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I have felt mostly numb and irritated whilst at work today.

Then at home, my emotions were great, almost utopian, as I played my guitar and taught myself some new songs.

After which I went for a drive and got super depressed, a particular song came on and then I realised how alone I was on that nightly drive. I felt despair, I had suicidal thoughts in my head, I felt directionless, confused about who I was and what I wanted from life. I was on the verge of tears but can never seem to cry out loud. It makes me feel like a robot.

I'm scared this is a pattern I am stuck in and in ten years I will be still bitching about the same problems, forever trying to climb out of the quicksand.

I wish I was going to bed in a better mood.
Sorry you've had a bit of a roller coaster ride today.

I'm very similar. My emotions play out like a concert pianist sweeping up and down the keys from high to low and back again. Do you find you can use music to lift yourself back up? x
 
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Yes that's sucks. Mood swings are so confusin', yesterday I was down. Now I'm ok :hug1:
 
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