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my dad makes me want to die

Fairy Lucretia

Fairy Lucretia

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he is horrible
he was awful to my mum ,and awful to me and my sister growing up
he hurt my pets

he was racist and sexist and homophobic and vulgar and crude

i phone and check on him every few at the home he is in

today ,the stupid person on the phone put me through to him
and i did not realise until i heard his voice
he said in his horrible voice 'i ain't interested'

he was a very strange and cruel person
the story is way too long to go into now but i had not heard his voice for 2 years and it was a shock
im scared to phone and check on him now in case they put me through again

i have had an awful year last year
i hope this one is better for the sake of my staying alive
 
Tawny

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Have you complained to the home? That is very bad they did that.

It is good of you to check on how he is. He clearly doesn't want to speak to you althogh i wonder if he feels a bit better knowing that you do check how he is?

Did you say anything to him?

To add: not that he deserves you checking up how he is.
 
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I'm sorry that happened. Maybe next time you should make it clear that you are just checking on him but don't want to speak to him.

Hugs
 
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I haven't seen my dad in many years. He is over 70 now. I haven't ever been tempted to get in touch and i was the one who ended the relationship. He didn't do anything nasty really, just didn't do anything full stop. I feel guilty sometimes, robbing him of my love and care, but he didn't want to give me his love and care while i was a child, so why should he have the benefit of having me in his life now i am an adult who does not need him.
 
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What really sad stories from you both. I can’t comment as I have not been in that situation it must be heartbreaking. My dad passed when I was 19 but he was so gentle and kind. I will send hugs 🫂 to you both
 
Fairy Lucretia

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sometime i will try write the story
i have tried for so long to make excuses for him
yes
he did have an awful childhood
but
mine was not good because of him
but
i love adore and cherish the people around me
thank you for your replies
Lu x
 
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I haven't seen my dad in many years. He is over 70 now. I haven't ever been tempted to get in touch and i was the one who ended the relationship. He didn't do anything nasty really, just didn't do anything full stop. I feel guilty sometimes, robbing him of my love and care, but he didn't want to give me his love and care while i was a child, so why should he have the benefit of having me in his life now i am an adult who does not need him.

I wish I didn’t need my parents. Being as independent as you are strikes me as a luxury. xo, j
 
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Fairy Lu, my heart goes out to you. I'm sure it hurts terribly the way he treated you and your mum. My dad did some awful things in his life to his family. I know now he had his demons maybe from a bad childhood. He's not here anymore and I miss him so much. You may not ever know though by checking on him how that may effect his thinking of you. ❤️
 
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I wish I didn’t need my parents. Being as independent as you are strikes me as a luxury. xo, j
I think I had to make big changes in my life because stress triggers episodes. I had to get rid of as much as possible. I was in so much pain so I had to protect myself from any more.

I also let an old friend go and some cousins.

Some things cannot be repaired can they.

I have a few close people in my life now but ultimately try to be independent and not need anyone. People let me down often, normal isn't it, and I was always suffering and confused.

It is clearer now life is smaller.

Dad, I dont know, itll never be anything like it should have been but I'm not hurt and angry anymore, just disappointed in his failings and selfishness.
 
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sometime i will try write the story
i have tried for so long to make excuses for him
yes
he did have an awful childhood
but
mine was not good because of him
but
i love adore and cherish the people around me
thank you for your replies
Lu x
My dad was depressed so has excuses too, but he never said sorry or feels sorry.

I'd like to read the story
 
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You sure are a good person. I hope you can remember that when you’re feeling low.
 
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he is horrible
he was awful to my mum ,and awful to me and my sister growing up
he hurt my pets

he was racist and sexist and homophobic and vulgar and crude

i phone and check on him every few at the home he is in

today ,the stupid person on the phone put me through to him
and i did not realise until i heard his voice
he said in his horrible voice 'i ain't interested'

he was a very strange and cruel person
the story is way too long to go into now but i had not heard his voice for 2 years and it was a shock
im scared to phone and check on him now in case they put me through again

i have had an awful year last year
i hope this one is better for the sake of my staying alive
I hear you. My dad makes me feel the same way. Do not take on his shit and be kind to yourself.

I wish he and my mum had put me up for adoption. They didn't deserve me.

Sending you lots of love and hugs.

❤🤗❤🤗❤🤗❤🤗❤🤗❤🤗❤🤗
 
Fairy Lucretia

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thank you so much
i haven't been very good at replying to my own threads as i am not well
i am very low in mood
and its really embaressing but i have a yeast infection
im not saying where but no its not my lady parts!
and also im having problems with my bowels
i send love to you all ,especially to those who replied to this
Lu xx
 
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Hi Lu,
So sorry you were put thru to your dad, I’d only ring if it gave me comfort.
I’d make sure the staff were aware you don’t want to talk to him.
You are so brave.
Please don’t be embarrassed having a yeast infection, they are common.
Only phone if you want to, and please don’t feel guilty if you don’t.
You need to take care of your mental health to.
Hugs
 
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