- Jun 19, 2015
We were talking about some of my experiences and how I have nightmares almost all of the time. Often about how I will fail miserably if I'm ever able to work again. She said some of what I said could be related to PTSD. Wouldn't I know if I had PTSD? I know that would require insight into ones own illness but wouldn't I have knowledge of traumatic experience? I know I could block out trauma and not be consciously aware of it but it just seems so bizzare. She is going to have a chat with the doctor on Monday after they come back from the thanksgiving holiday. The only thing I can think of that would be related to stress is the severe spankings I received at the hands of my parents, knowing my mother was terminally ill during my teens that led to her death when I was 15, or possibly being abandoned by my ex wife for another man. I mean people have to deal with this kind of shit all the time right? Or could the effects of these experiences be more pronounced and traumatic because I have had symptoms of schizophrenia since I was a little boy?