my brain telling me I did something wrong

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sophiek1995

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Hi. First of all, sorry if this is in the wrong section, I'm new to this forum and wasn't sure whether to put it here or in the OCD section.

A bit of background information, I have been suffering with OCD which leads me to get intrusive thoughts about stuff I haven't done, or make things seem worse in my head than actually happened

I work in a clothing shop, in the fitting room department. On Friday, it was very busy there and when I was letting a woman through, my fingers brushed the top part of her legs for a few seconds. Since then, I felt so guilty as if I'd done something really wrong and disgusting. when she came out, I apologised and said 'sorry i think i accidentally hit you on the way in' and she said this was completely fine, and thank you for apologising. so I know in my head she didn't feel like I had done anything wrong. But I cant stop thinking about it, imagining I did something awful/disgusting

one thing I am considering doing is asking my manager to view the CCTV (we dont have CCTV in the actual fitting rooms, just by the entrance where this happened) I have thought of an excuse to tell my manager, and I feel that seeing the event again will help put my mind to rest. i have checked and the law says I have a right to view cctv of myself.

Please, does anyone have any other advice? I am so wracked with guilt and feel disgusted at myself, I know deep down this was a simple innocent accident that happens to many people in busy places right? but i guess this is part of OCD, being unable to control these thoughts and overthinking things.

thank you so much
 
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dewey

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We all have these anxiety mechanisms, or social awareness mechanisms, so we can function well in society right? Getting the anxiety is what stops us doing these sorts of things so we can function socially. So everyone should have some level of anxiety.
In this situation you could say your anxiety mechanism is broken in some sense, it has become out of control, kind of like the mechanism is being over-stimulated hence why you are obsessing over this even though the lady said it was cool.
You got to recognise this is what is happening. The inhibitions basically exist for a reason, but your inhibitions are in overdrive. Hope that helps
 
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We all have these anxiety mechanisms, or social awareness mechanisms, so we can function well in society right? Getting the anxiety is what stops us doing these sorts of things so we can function socially. So everyone should have some level of anxiety.
In this situation you could say your anxiety mechanism is broken in some sense, it has become out of control, kind of like the mechanism is being over-stimulated hence why you are obsessing over this even though the lady said it was cool.
You got to recognise this is what is happening. The inhibitions basically exist for a reason, but your inhibitions are in overdrive. Hope that helps
yes I understand :) I'm trying to take my mind off it but I just can't, I'm hoping that being able to view the CCTV will at least put my mind to rest.
 

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