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its_all_good
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Hey everyone
I apologise in advance for what may sound like a rather depressing post, but i can't hold it in any longer.
I was diagnosed with bipolar two years ago and it's completely ruined my life. I try to stay afloat, but every time something good happens, I go crazy and spoil it all.
Which brings me to my friends. When I first told some of them (and my family) about my illness, they understood me and said they will still like me despite my violent mood swings. Fast-forward two years and none of them want to talk to me anymore. They couldn't stand my changes in mood. My family doesn't acknowledge that I've got a problem. They dismiss it as something trivial.
What hurts the most is that no one understands what I go through. I feel so alone. My days are just empty and boring now - OK, I'm in a job that I love, but afterwards, I still feel isolated. I'm at home most of the time and I'm going crazy. I'm on medication for the rest of my life and it's killing me.
All I want is to talk to someone who is going through the same thing. Someone who understands my condition. Someone who will stick by me, inspite of my disorder. It's such a cruel world we live in.
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I apologise in advance for what may sound like a rather depressing post, but i can't hold it in any longer.
I was diagnosed with bipolar two years ago and it's completely ruined my life. I try to stay afloat, but every time something good happens, I go crazy and spoil it all.
Which brings me to my friends. When I first told some of them (and my family) about my illness, they understood me and said they will still like me despite my violent mood swings. Fast-forward two years and none of them want to talk to me anymore. They couldn't stand my changes in mood. My family doesn't acknowledge that I've got a problem. They dismiss it as something trivial.
What hurts the most is that no one understands what I go through. I feel so alone. My days are just empty and boring now - OK, I'm in a job that I love, but afterwards, I still feel isolated. I'm at home most of the time and I'm going crazy. I'm on medication for the rest of my life and it's killing me.
All I want is to talk to someone who is going through the same thing. Someone who understands my condition. Someone who will stick by me, inspite of my disorder. It's such a cruel world we live in.
Thanks. You may hit the back button on your browser now if you want.