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MrWIlliams
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***TRIGGER WARNING - discusses romantic relationship with a minor, non-sexual***
To start this off, I just want to say that I am not a smart person, I am actually a very stupid one at least.
Back in 2016 I did something which I wish I have never done in the first place, I know most of you guys are going to hate me for it after reading this post because I still think I deserve to be hated.
On a Discord server, I met a girl who was 10 years old and I was 15 at that time. Now I'm going to admit, I did not know what pedophilia actually meant at that time. We made friends, and then I unknowingly started posting heart emotes and "i love you" with her in her Direct Messages. A few days later she finally broke up with me, and I saw how uncomfortable she felt. Everyone in the server started hating me for what I did, and they stated that they will never forget what I did.
Some years passed and when I returned to the Discord server, I was reminded of the event, and I finally apologized to the user I affected back then. However even though it was years ago, I really hate myself for what I did and I feel that I am one of the most disgusting people in the world who deserves to rot in hell.
In the past few weeks I cried, I did things to hurt or kill myself, I deleted my Discord server, and I quit most of the internet communities I was in for good. I really want to change myself for the better, but even though what I did was years ago, I still think I deserve to die and be hated on.
Guys, I need help on how to improve to become a better person, because I find it very hard to with what I did in the past. Also If I posted this in the wrong thread, I am very sorry for that and everything I've done.
To start this off, I just want to say that I am not a smart person, I am actually a very stupid one at least.
Back in 2016 I did something which I wish I have never done in the first place, I know most of you guys are going to hate me for it after reading this post because I still think I deserve to be hated.
On a Discord server, I met a girl who was 10 years old and I was 15 at that time. Now I'm going to admit, I did not know what pedophilia actually meant at that time. We made friends, and then I unknowingly started posting heart emotes and "i love you" with her in her Direct Messages. A few days later she finally broke up with me, and I saw how uncomfortable she felt. Everyone in the server started hating me for what I did, and they stated that they will never forget what I did.
Some years passed and when I returned to the Discord server, I was reminded of the event, and I finally apologized to the user I affected back then. However even though it was years ago, I really hate myself for what I did and I feel that I am one of the most disgusting people in the world who deserves to rot in hell.
In the past few weeks I cried, I did things to hurt or kill myself, I deleted my Discord server, and I quit most of the internet communities I was in for good. I really want to change myself for the better, but even though what I did was years ago, I still think I deserve to die and be hated on.
Guys, I need help on how to improve to become a better person, because I find it very hard to with what I did in the past. Also If I posted this in the wrong thread, I am very sorry for that and everything I've done.
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