thanks everyone for the advice. Yes the anxiety is very much still in me. As im writing this im feeling those feelings lol. Im thinking that the first thing I should be doing is to try to get rid of the anxiety. I know that this is what's destroying my lazy boy sleeping. God just a few days ago I was being blamed for sleeping to much.....seems like now I forgot how to sleep. Forgot how to love my bed. Forgot as if god came in took away my sleep power lol.
Again I had a insomnia a few years back. And it was terrifying. Back then I had no job, and was in a bad place. So I understood kinda why that happened to. I wish I remembered how it started back then. These Jolts I had two weeks ago immediately made me remember those fears from back then. Jolts made my mind feel like "oh man where did that come from"...…
but to be truthful Ive had terrible sleep patterns. Loved staying up late and sleeping sometime in the morning. It never bothered me though. I remember while laying in bed I ate like a pig. The day this happened I ate while in the bed while looking at a movie. I over ate as well. Jolted up out of my sleep and here we are.
I heard its bad to just lay in the bed. Is that true?
thanks everyone so much for speakin with me....
Rich, I hate to say this but I am pretty sure you're having panic attacks. Not all panic attacks totally "break through" and cause total confusion.
Instead, for me, they started with exactly the symptoms you're describing. Also now that I've had the full-blown "a lion is chasing me down the street but there's no lion there" kind of panic attacks for a while, I can actually control those, but I go through all the symptoms you're describing on the way down.
The reason I'm risking jumping to a conclusion is that I realize I should have gotten more treatment sooner. Your active lifestyle has probably been protecting you for years. It's like taking an SSRI. But eventually you get a little too tired.
Go to your doctor. Don't be afraid to exaggerate a little. Make sure the doc understands you need the panic attacks to STOP. You need to feel that you have regained control. Until I had a doctor who didn't mess around with gradualist BS and just assured me that I could trust her and she would fix it, THEN we would talk about easing back on the medication (which I did, of course) I couldn't get a handle on the situation.
Also, start immediately with the techniques on this website:
Getselfhelp.co.uk CBT self help and therapy resources
STOPP techniques and the others will really help tremendously but there's a little learning curve, so start right away.
You're very wise to reach out right away. Take this seriously and you'll get control, but I fear I'm right in saying it won't go away on its own. There's nothing about living with this fear and exhaustion that is going to make you a better person. It will just wear you out.
And BE CAREFUL AT WORK AND ON THE ROAD.
You're smart and you'll win. No worries.