- Oct 22, 2018
- California, USA
My 23 yr old daughter lives with me and has depression and anxiety and although not officially diagnosed, we feel (and so does she) that she may be bipolar. She is on an anti-depressant as well as an anti-anxiety med and most recently was put on a mood stabilizer. The problem is she's terrible with being consistent with taking her meds. Yesterday I was with her in her room for about an hour and 1/2 while she was completely freaking out on me about how terrible her life is and comparing herself to others and brought up things from the past and made me to feel at fault for most things. I find out that she hasn't taken her meds for 3 days. Her tirade happens about every 3 weeks or so and pretty much always coincides with her not taking her meds regularly. So I get to sit there while she yells, screams, cries and she hurls hurtful words at me, and no matter what I say or don't say nothing is ever right. I don't know whether to stay in the room with her or leave a the point where she starts verbally attacking me. I don't know what the right thing is. The issues that she screams about are basically always about the same things and she repeats herself constantly. I'm drained and am so tired of this cycle with her. She always apologizes after she's calmed down and tells me she doesn't mean to hurt me etc. I know she means it. But I'm tired of being a human punching bag (in the verbal sense). I also have depression and anxiety, but not to the degree that she does. I am also on medication. It's been harder for me to stay strong for her lately. I feel like I'm barely hanging on sometimes and when she has days like this where she's in verbal attack mode, I feel myself thinking what is the point of any of this. I try to talk to those close to me, but they don't really understand. I thank you for just reading this. I felt a need to get it out to people who "get it".