- Sep 25, 2019
Well I'd say in the last 11 months I've had at least 5 (2 this month) intense manic episodes. I should have gotten into a psychiatrist in feb. And probably a dozen hypomanic episodes. This is all so different for me. I'm use to dealing with depression, that's where I always lay. In her bed crying all day. Except those sleepless nights I'd be on cloud 9 and loving life for a brief time. But for 2years I have not layed in bed crying and overwhelmed. I've honestly been enjoying my mania, well I guess just the thrill and euphoria. I have done terrible things, gave someone $3,000 (I'm a poor single mom!) Very hypersexual all the time, walked out on my job because I couldn't function, thought I was having a heart attack, over the top grandiose thoughts, inappropriate talk to my boss, co-workers,and customers, well everyone. I'm at the point now that I'm humiliated and sick of myself. I've been at my job for 6 yrs and I am so embarrassed. I have to go in and face them tomorrow. Yikes! Well my question is how do you regulate yourself. I am alone (I guess my kids are good at telling if I'm manic) I try and get sleep. I know that can send me flying. I just don't know how to deal with so much mania. I am getting in to see a psychiatrist. I haven't been this bipolar crazy for 10yrs. How do you guys deal with your bipolar changing?