- May 3, 2015
I might have what is called bipolar disorder but it is so much more complicated than that. When the bipolar is managed, there are other problems that come forwards to be dealt with. I have suicidal feelings often. I panic over my future. I have anxiety over many things. I feel I'm at crisis almost, most days. I'm one stubbed toe away from giving in, walking out the door, and keeping going until I don't know what. I feel suffocated daily. I pull myself through each day. I know how to take care of myself but I wish I would get better already. The pressure of benefit cuts is looming. I don't know how to prove I can't cope when I am coping, but only just.