
Inthedepths
Well-known member
Hi All,
First post, probably of many. I am going to see my doctors on Monday morning [the wonders of not being allowed to be ill in the UK at weekends] to see if they can do anything for me.
I have been struggling for the past 9 months between being on top of the world, everything being fantastic, to suddenly, usually on a simple word, phrase or question from someone, to spiralling downwards into an abyss of self loathing, lashing out at everyone, but especially those who are close to me. Then just as soon as it started, Ill start being really happy, raving on about things and laughing and joking with everyone.
The last month or so, the downs are becoming more and more frequent, occupying huge amounts of my time. I frequently end up almost frozen with self hatred and loathing, which is affecting my working life, as well as personal relationships.
The event that has caused me to seek medical help is that the person who means the most to me in the world has said I am making her ill with my mood swings and she doesn't feel she can be my friend anymore. If I lose her, I have lost everything
Hopefully someone can answer this question, do you tell anyone at work you suffer from manic depression? A lot of people I work with humour me, as im prone to outbursts of insanity anyway, but it is getting noticable that people are treating me as unstable.
First post, probably of many. I am going to see my doctors on Monday morning [the wonders of not being allowed to be ill in the UK at weekends] to see if they can do anything for me.
I have been struggling for the past 9 months between being on top of the world, everything being fantastic, to suddenly, usually on a simple word, phrase or question from someone, to spiralling downwards into an abyss of self loathing, lashing out at everyone, but especially those who are close to me. Then just as soon as it started, Ill start being really happy, raving on about things and laughing and joking with everyone.
The last month or so, the downs are becoming more and more frequent, occupying huge amounts of my time. I frequently end up almost frozen with self hatred and loathing, which is affecting my working life, as well as personal relationships.
The event that has caused me to seek medical help is that the person who means the most to me in the world has said I am making her ill with my mood swings and she doesn't feel she can be my friend anymore. If I lose her, I have lost everything

Hopefully someone can answer this question, do you tell anyone at work you suffer from manic depression? A lot of people I work with humour me, as im prone to outbursts of insanity anyway, but it is getting noticable that people are treating me as unstable.
