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Mind fog

Not_Crazy_Yet

Not_Crazy_Yet

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I'm feeling very strange today. I have been having intrusive thoughts and been getting synchronicities with the Tv. I cant think clearly. My voices are all over the place. When I do eat I feel nauseous. I've been having thoughts of SHing or harming other people. I saw my nurse today. She wasn't happy that my apartment is a mess, but she told me she wasn't going to focus on that because she could tell I wasn't well. My blood pressure was super high 194/101. Shes going to schedule an appointment for me at the free clinic to get my blood pressure seen about. I cant remember anything. I just want to sleep. I am thinking of going to the hospital but I don't really want to.
 
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I have been having intrusive thoughts and been getting synchronicities with the Tv. I cant think clearly. My voices are all over the place. When I do eat I feel nauseous. I've been having thoughts of SHing or harming other people. . . My blood pressure was super high 194/101.
i think those signs merit a hospital visit. at least you have that appointment though.
 
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I'm feeling a bit better. I didn't go to the hospital, instead I took my anxiety meds and I calmed down quite nicely. I have started having visuals again though. I have been seeing UFOs and earlier I saw something I can only describe as a portal of sorts into another dimension. It was like a bright blue orb that was kind of oblong in shape. It quickly dematerialized and was gone like most of my visuals do. Except the UFOs, those stay for hours. I used to watch them with binoculars. Once when I was doing so a black helicopter came overhead with its searchlight on and it was shining all around my yard and thru the woods. I was worried they would spot me so I ran under a bush and hugged it. As far as I know they never saw me. I do wonder though if it was ever there in the first place. I was psychotic at the time and was certain that they were working for the government and were there to collect me because I was able to see the UFOs while others were not.
 
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The fog continues. I've been having strange visuals. I was talking with my friend earlier and his head shrank down to a very small size. I've been seeing strange things out of the corner of my eye too. I saw shadows of a walking dog so I looked up to see the dog and there was nothing there. The Elves that I used to see are back. I've also had some strange thoughts lately. I've been communicating telepathically to a nearby UFO. I had an interview with an alien, he was curious about our culture. He wanted to know certain details and meaning of some of our society. Also I think I may have had a micro seizure again. I haven't had one that I know about in a few months now. The last time I had one I was awake and cognizant the whole time but I lost control of my body and my eyes crossed.

Also I have been thinking the reason I see UFOs is that they are trying to contact me because I am one of the only people that can see them. It is likely this is the same reason that the government is tracking me. Maybe I should contact the FBI and request their file on me. Its a law that they have to provide it upon request. The only thing I wonder about is what if its a different agency that's tracking me.
 
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No I've been seeing UFOs for about 5 or 6 years now. They have followed me to my new city. Last night I was watching the UFOs and I could hear a helicopter circling but I never saw it or its lights. I got really paranoid that they were looking for me.


I made an ass of myself today. One of my social workers came by to make sure no one was living with me and to tell me that my friend can't come over to spend the weekend with me any more. I called my housing social worker to confirm that was true and then I started drinking. She called me back and I was sloppy drunk when she called. I have no idea what I said to her. I'm so ashamed of myself. I just cant stop drinking.
 
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And the plot thickens thicker. My thinking has been rather disheveled still. I have been taking my meds like a good little soldier. They feel a little stronger as I hadn't been taking the full dosage for over a month. I think my diminished mental capacity is partially to be blamed on the meds. With them I'm sedated an non confrontational. When I'm off of them I'm nuttier than squirrel shit. Is there a middle ground somewhere? Or is my perception going to be black or white with no grey area?

New (or rather recurrence of symptoms) I've been seeing the shadow people again. They draw closer always. The last one I saw was about 6ft from me. I have to wonder are they becoming tame? If not why this sudden closeness? Perhaps its a sign that death encroaches. The wood elves I no longer see, that is to say at least I haven't been seeing them lately. I have been toying with the idea of buying a seven pointed star(elven pentacle) perhaps the elves offer protection from the darkness. But then again who's to say that the shadow people haven't returned to fend off the elves? Its difficult to calculate the benign or nefarious energies that emanate from their spirits.

OR maybe I am just f***ing crazy. Believing in energies radiated from the product of my hallucinations. I wonder if there's a way to print all of my posts on the MHF off to give to my doctor. Maybe it would clue them in on just how broken and fractured I am.

It seems to me I had more to write but I cant concentrate ATM.
 
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I've been having synchronicities too checkem out at my forum [moderated - details of forum removed] my username is Willard Rohm on there and I have my own thread. Looking forward to seeing you sir.
 
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