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Malicious Persistent Voices

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ernesto3

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Hey guys. I just wanted to share my experience to see if anyone could relate or just give any feedback. I’m 19.

I’ve been hearing voices for about 3-4 months now but have only been receiving medicine for about a week. My voices started like how many of you guys voices started, first they spoke about what I was doing until they began speaking directly to me. They weren’t ever nice though.

They would pretend to be some group that was hired by people to make me suffer & to send me to prison for a lifetime by getting “evidence” from my head & finding ways to use it. They claim to be using some sort of technology that simulates paranoid schizophrenia & that can also read my mind. I feel like they began because of my heavy previous drug use & lack of self-care.

They were also very manipulative, using tactics that made me believe they were real. They would mess with my head by adding other voices or pretending to be people they weren’t. They would threaten to kill me in my sleep & to also imprison my family. The bad experiences I’ve had with them have been plenty. They basically always pretended to be outside of whatever building I was in, which was usually 2 locations. I’m gullible so it was all so frightening for some time. I only got better once my mom pulled me out of the university.

The main thing about my voices is that they’re persistent. Even now with the medicine, they’re quieter but still talk with the same intensity almost. I was wondering if anybody could relate to this? My voices persist that they’re real people & that they really want me to believe them because they claim they don’t want me imprisoned without my knowing first. They’re also persistent in that they really want to get rid of me & mainly that they’re going to sue me.

Also another thing about my voices is that they converse with me pretty often. It’s usually to remind me about their goal & to try to get me to believe that they’re real. There’s like 3 main voices & each one talks like their own person. One uses some “voice modulator” to change their tone of voice at night but in the daytime, they talk normally. They’re sooo convincing, I’m saying so because they’ve sort of told me things I didn’t realize before & things of that sort. Is that relatable to anyone?
I really want these voices gone but they tell me that I’ll soon be gone. They make comments that I’ve never made before & some that I have, I don’t know what to think sometimes.

Thank you to anyone that provides any sort of feedback or reply.
 
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I haven't got the same experiance as you - I have constant noise with occasional voices, but my heart goes out to you. Its early days on the meds - hang in there.
 
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Hi Ernesto.

Yes, you are right, they sure are persistent. I am a little concerned that you may be also be experiencing paranoid delusions with your hallucinations. This can cause you to believe all sorts of things. You are particularly vulnerable because this is all relatively new to you.
 
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What medication are you on? some medications take time to kick in and silence the voices usually within about 2 weeks of starting the medications. Other more powerful medications work within a day but they have more side effect like increase in weight over time, more tiredness/weakness etc. So, just hang in there, the voices will be gone soon. If it does not go within 2 weeks. Talk to your doctor to maybe increase the dosage or change the medication to another one. Also, once the voices are silent, the best way of ensuring the medication stays effective for as long as possible is to never miss taking them. When you miss your medication for some time and restart them again later, they become less effective and if you keep doing that, at some point they will never work again from my personal experience. Don't take alcohol as it affects the effectiveness of medications. That is my advice.
 
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Could this have been brought on through paranoia?
 
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I don't know if you'll believe this or not but I had a very similar experience, I learned that we all have another mind sharing our body with us, a kind of passenger mind so they know what you're thinking and know everything about you as they've grown up with you.

Mine pretended to be multiple people in the real world at first, police who were coming to get me and could change his voice to any gender or nationality.

Medication reduces Dopamine levels so their electrical signals are much weaker and they sound quieter, it also takes away their abilities which I won't go into right now just know you're hurting him more than he's hurting you.
 
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@burt tomato, yeah i think they may be paranoid delusions. Well I hope so, my voices really want me to believe they’re real & claim to be very real people. I’m glad to know they’re persistent for others too though
 
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@GoldFish123, I’m currently on 1mg daily dose of risperdal which has silenced them somewhat, but the intensity of what they say is the same just a lot quieter. Thank you for the advice though, I’m definitely going to stay away from alcohol & def do not plan on getting off the meds for some time. I really want them gone because they drain so much willpower
 
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@OCDguy, yeah i think so. I didn’t know it was all in my head until like the 4th month so i feel like that could’ve allowed them to form a very strong base in my head
 
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@NWiddi, yeah i def believe you. I was unaware that it might be another conscious within me though. Mine seems to be insanely resilient & will not quiet down regardless. His reason for not quieting down although it has no reason to be there is that a lot of people don’t like me & want me to suffer. I hope the meds can really get the job done. He always says that people paid a lot of money
 
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@GoldFish123, I’m currently on 1mg daily dose of risperdal which has silenced them somewhat, but the intensity of what they say is the same just a lot quieter. Thank you for the advice though, I’m definitely going to stay away from alcohol & def do not plan on getting off the meds for some time. I really want them gone because they drain so much willpower
I started with Risperdal too but 2mg. It took about 2 weeks to fully kick in. When I stopped hearing the voices, the doctor reduced it to 1mg and it returned and he had to increase it back to 2mg. So, if your 1mg does not work perfectly within 2 weeks, see the doctor, there is still room to increase the dosage.
 
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I was on 6 mg of risperidone and it quieted down the voices quite a bit but left me very inactive and emotionless and I gained 70 pounds. It was lowered to 4mg and I was all right on that. Then when it was lowered to 3mg I lost weight but the voices came back and I ended up having a paranoid, delusional relapse.
 
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I started with Risperdal too but 2mg. It took about 2 weeks to fully kick in. When I stopped hearing the voices, the doctor reduced it to 1mg and it returned and he had to increase it back to 2mg. So, if your 1mg does not work perfectly within 2 weeks, see the doctor, there is still room to increase the dosage.
Hmm thank you for this. I was honestly really worried before, i thought that it was people with real access to tech that can do this, but it literally does’t make sense. Before it did but I’ve looked into it & unless they implanted my brain, other people would be able to hear them or it’d be really tough to only talk to me. I might need to increase my dose, i’m glad risperdal is effective though
 
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I was on 6 mg of risperidone and it quieted down the voices quite a bit but left me very inactive and emotionless and I gained 70 pounds. It was lowered to 4mg and I was all right on that. Then when it was lowered to 3mg I lost weight but the voices came back and I ended up having a paranoid, delusional relapse.
Okay i’ll try & stick with lower doses because the 1mg has def had some effect. I was def having paranoid delusions, they had me going insane & it was all way too realistic. I have no idea how our brain is able to create other complex entities within our brain with such manipulative tendencies.
 
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If it’s the first time for you with such an episode (FEP) then it’s better to follow the “start low and go slow” approach for the medication. It can take even more than 6 weeks to get your symptoms under control. Having some insight about what’s happening to you (menta health issues) it’s a very good sign. Take care of your sleep, your food and exercise a bit.
 
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