maladaptive daydreaming x schizophrenia

[jonasscan]

Is it possible that maladaptive daydreaming is the beginning of schizophrenia?

 

[jonasscan]

Not necessary all of the cases, but what if maladaptive daydreaming it's a sign of the beginning of schizophrenia?

 

[PastelKittenX]

Don't think soooo....

Most cases is that it is either genetic or a result of trauma/bad life experiences etc.

You worried about developing schizophrenia?

 

[jonasscan]

kind've.

 

[jonasscan]

supposedly my dad has it, he never talked about it but my mom told me he was diagnosed. My father's family is / was a bit of a jerk at various times, even about that, I think because of the stigma, but even though the family is a jerk, he never helped himself. The thing is that I feel / see that I have a lot of his behavior.

 

[jonasscan]

I have no willforce, lack of interest, i feel like if i was just waiting for my death, kind've if i was doomed, i know i'm not, but it's like a false belief that i cannot stop believing in it, like if wasn't worth it trying to change my situation, to put effort into something.
about maladaptive daydreaming i think i always had it, at least as long as i can remenber, i've created lives, events, experiences in my mind...

 

[jonasscan]

I think that i was repressed by a lot of things/people that happened in the past, and that was the only way i was able to go through it

 

[jonasscan]

I think I created a persona, or who I would like to be or have been in my head because I couldn't be in my reality. The problem is that time goes by, and I'm not doing what I should, I let everything go by, people, exams in college, studying, trying hard. I live / lived so much in my imagination that I didn't / do anything downwardly, I'm always between imagination and reality, but never 100% in one. I don't feel complete, I don't know if this is all the time or if when I get distracted I may not realize it.

 

[jonasscan]

I don't have self esteem, or is just too damn low. Honestly that are a lot of other things that i don't even know how to explain. It kind've feels like my soul has left my body but never came back.

 

[jonasscan]

I feel like a have a different perception of life that most people, not saying i'm special or something like that, i think that i just don't wanna put up with the bullshit, social conventions, lies, prentendings, hipocrisy. Not saying i'm perfect at all, but i just feel that i'm willing to make changes, from deep inside, like dealing/talking about racism and other problems that should've been dealt a long time a go, this is just an exemple of it.
I'm tired of listen to people saying that things need to change but i don't see anyone willing to even give a try. People painted a complet different picture about the world and themselves that i wasn't able to deal with it the differences between the reality and what people pretend it was/is.

 

[jonasscan]

I think that i'm afraid because i know that it can destroy a person's life, if not treated, and when the it has a late diagnosis. Because i seen what did to my father, and i don't want it to happen to me.