I have no willforce, lack of interest, i feel like if i was just waiting for my death, kind've if i was doomed, i know i'm not, but it's like a false belief that i cannot stop believing in it, like if wasn't worth it trying to change my situation, to put effort into something.
about maladaptive daydreaming i think i always had it, at least as long as i can remenber, i've created lives, events, experiences in my mind...