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Major Depression / Treatment Resistant

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JCPraha

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I know. Bad depression destroys everything. But, I am trying what I am able to try. I suppose I have to try. Just staying the way I am is not possible to live with. I really don't know what I will do if this doesn't work. No idea how I can carry on in this terrible state.
 
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@JCPraha

I feel exactly how you feel.... lots of fear and anxiety. I’m scared if it won’t work. I may be one of those worst cases.
 
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Hello Tmarecha!
Can you tell us what meds you took, and what medical tests you did so far
Sometimes depression is a symptom of some other condition
Did they check your thyroid? Vitamin D3 level? Do you have any other symptoms like acne, joint pain, skin conditions?
 
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@Catty5 I had 5 ECT treatments so far. I think it is beginning to help. I will have #6 on Friday and then 3 more next week. I should know at that point whether it will work for me or not. I hope it does, because I don't know of anything else I can try. If it works, I can get maintenance treatments once or twice per month as an outpatient. But this depression is so terrible, I will try anything to get rid of it. I hope you are doing ok.
 
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Good to hear from you again.
ECT 9 times total?
I go to TMS. I think my brain cleared up and can sleep well without med but I don’t feel good yet.
I have so much fear and anxiety by wondering if it’ll work or not....my depression is sooooo horrible, it took away my career. Like you, I hope it’ll work for me. We’re in the same boat.
 
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JCPraha

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Right now I am thinking I will get 9 treatments and then maintenance once per month. This treatment appears to be my last resort. I don't know what else could possibly help after this. But I am still hopeful. Anxiety and fear are the worse symptoms for me to cope with, they really make an entire day miserable. Keep trying. I think the TMS will help you, to at least get into a tolerable state of mind.
 
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I wrote to your another post. What are the symptoms of your depression? Mine has a sort of cognitive impairment=my brain isn’t working well. I’m scared to death wondering if my brain function will be back or not. Nobody explains it to me.
 
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JCPraha

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Hello Catty,
My brain does not function so well for complex tasks. I often have no energy and depressed, like in a dark dreary place. At other times I am anxious and tense.

Most of the time it is miserable. I am not stable. Mood swings. Sometimes can't sleep.

No one can explain it. I often feel like it is a form of dementia, in my case. I suppose it is the depression. It feels like Alzheimers sometimes.
 
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Hello Catty,
My brain does not function so well for complex tasks. I often have no energy and depressed, like in a dark dreary place. At other times I am anxious and tense.

Most of the time it is miserable. I am not stable. Mood swings. Sometimes can't sleep.

No one can explain it. I often feel like it is a form of dementia, in my case. I suppose it is the depression. It feels like Alzheimers sometimes.
I even cannot do simple tasks well. My brain
Hello Catty,
My brain does not function so well for complex tasks. I often have no energy and depressed, like in a dark dreary place. At other times I am anxious and tense.

Most of the time it is miserable. I am not stable. Mood swings. Sometimes can't sleep.

No one can explain it. I often feel like it is a form of dementia, in my case. I suppose it is the depression. It feels like Alzheimers sometimes.
Hi again

I sometimes feel exactly the same as you feel....i’m older. I may have Alzheimer’s or dementia. Or any sort of neuro degenerative disorder. I remember 40 some years old Alzheimer’s patient at work before.
 
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