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Major Depression / Treatment Resistant

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JCPraha

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I dont function nearly as well as I did in the past. I suppose I just have to accept it for what it is. But it is certainly difficult to live. Really, a terrible way to live. Not so much joy in life. Mostly pain.
 
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I dont function nearly as well as I did in the past. I suppose I just have to accept it for what it is. But it is certainly difficult to live. Really, a terrible way to live. Not so much joy in life. Mostly pain.
Yes I feel the same
Severe depression ate me up?
I’m often scared to death what I can do if I would be like this forever???
 
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I dont function nearly as well as I did in the past. I suppose I just have to accept it for what it is. But it is certainly difficult to live. Really, a terrible way to live. Not so much joy in life. Mostly pain.
PS
Sometimes, companies do “clinical trial” for rTMS. You can google it.
 
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OK. Thanks. It is scary to think of. It feels like it will not end when I am in the middle of it. Can't see the light at the end of the tunnel.
 
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It is difficult for sure. I don't function the same either. It is rather scary. Don't know what i can do.
 
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Hi again
Either ECT or TMS doesn’t seem to a permanent solution but I still try since i’m so desperate. I feel how you feel.
I saw ad before in which TMS clinic was looking for person who had PTSD and OCD. UCLA also does researches to expand the use of TMS.
Please don’t give up.
 
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Either ECT or TMS doesn’t seem to a permanent solution but I still try since i’m so desperate. I feel how you feel.
I was reading up on ECT. Apparently it is not a permanent solution, the relapse rate is quite high, although it is highly effective. I was hoping it had a longer lasting effect. I was going to pay for it out of pocket, but it appears I would need ongoing and continuing treatments. At $3000/treatment. I guess the solution is quite elusive. It is disheartening.
 
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$3000 per session? OMG
How many sessions do you need for each time?
 
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I think the ECT would cost me abot $30K in the use. Maybe 8 or 9 sessions. However, I found a place in Europe that does it. I have insurance in the Czech Republic so I am getting treatment here. I had one treatment so far, but it is inpatient and not very pleasant. I will have 3 treatments next week. I would pay the $30K if I had to, since life is worth nothing if I have this terrible depression and the money will do me no good if I am in this state.
 
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I think you can get a course of treatment of TMS for about $!4K unless you have insurance that will pay for it. It is not quite as effective as ECT but it seems to help many people nevertheless.
 
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Medication didn't work for me. I had adverse reactions to a couple, and I also have health anxiety, so I worried about the pills. It just made everything worse.

I just worked on psychotherapy as much as I could, and it helped quite a bit
 
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Hi
JCPraha

I agree...Life is most important. Like you, I cannot live like this. So miserable and frustrating.
How was your first ECT session?
After TMS, I became anxious and pessimistic, a kind of confused today.
I try to be patient thinking anything would happen since it’s stimulating a lymbic system and Amygdala.
 
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Hi I also suffer maJor depression disorder and treatment resistance. I have suffered for 19 years and have tried a lot of drugs. So I have every sympathy for your. Myself I will continue trying new Meds and hopefully one will work . Say as positive as you can .
 
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Hello Catty,

I had two ECT sessions so far and another one tomorrow. No real bad adverse effects from it. I will need at least 8 treatments to know if it will be effective. Too soon to know right now. But so far, it hasn't done anything harmful.

Like I said before, the depression is so miserable, I am willing to give anything a try. I really can't live with it for any length of time. It is absolutely horrible. It really destroys my life.

It sounds like you are getting TMS treatment. That's great! It takes quite a number of TMS sessions before you will know if it will help. But it does help the majority of people that try it from what I have read.

I am hoping it helps you as well. Take care.
 
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It sounds really good to hear you don’t have any significant side effect ftom ECT.

I began to feel just a tiny bit better with TMS or Prozac or both since yesterday.
But i’m still dissociated badly. I’m still on the half way.
But I try not to expect too much.... I don’t want to feel disappointment😰

Yes I try if it worked for others. I cannot live like this. Yes it destroyed my career (I have to start it all over again), and my life. I’m with you. We’re in a same boat,
 
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