- Jun 5, 2021
That's very interesting. I am a bit ill right now so I won't say much more for now. I've been out of the hospital one month but struggling with energy levels. There was also a time during the forced injections that one abrupt nurse was teaching another about how to do an injection and they were rummaging around near to my spine, I even wondered if some of the needle broke off because of how hard it felt it was pressed in at some time or times. I have been worrying about that a lot, and if I need a scan to find it. Everything just seems to move too slowly and evilly in this society.I see your latest comments now, we're four hours later than you and was out visiting relatives yesterday afternoon and evening. I think that's great about eating a lot better, and getting amount of exercise too. 'Cause the brain is part of the body, nutrition, fresh air I find for myself affect my mood and energy level.
I had an experience a few years ago I can tell you about sometime that convinced me that evil is real and the source or repository of evil too, in my case experienced "devils" or "Satan" trying to get me to do myself in so I could be tortured in "Hell" for eternity. In that case it was a neighbour I started accepting soup with delicious chicken legs in it every morning that I realized was laced with some kind of powerful stimulant. I literally didn't sleep for 28 nights, just pacing all night, started not going out at all...it's a long story that I won't go into all the details of now. Anyway well-meaning family members put me into a mental hospital. I realized I couldn't get out unless I agreed with them that the devils experience was just delusion and paranoia from my own mind. It meant a lot of outright pretending to them what my thoughts were and they released me after three weeks.
Years later I talked to a local pastor about my experience with the devils and the neighbour who I now believe was some kind of evil person. He thought maybe the neighbour had been maybe using peyote or some other stimulant/hallucinogen. He also said he believes in evil, and that in the Bible many of Jesus' curing of people were actually exorcisms. And he's a local Anglican minister, just very tame and vanilla-style, not an extremist. I'm now convinced that even if what I experienced were partly drug-induced hallucinations and paranoia, the source of it all was this neighbour who I think in old-style terms was some kind of "witch" who took pleasure in attacking others that way. Anyway as I say it's a long story but it left me with the belief that there is active evil in the world, evil people, and even "demons" or "devils" or "Satan" and as you say Lucifer.
In the psychiatric hospital there were some men who'd be talking loudly to themselves in stream of conscious type conversation or sometimes going on shouting rants, and one two guys who even thought I was a cop who'd been placed there and were threatening me, in short a kind of insane asylum or bedlam in many ways. I didn't feel safe there at all, but the staff would just smile and tell me it was my own paranoia, and gave me more little pills throughout the day to help sedate me more.
Luckily as I say I was able to convince the psychiatrist that I was now happy and cured after three weeks and escape from there.
Anyhow: To get to the point - I fully agree with you that what you experienced was real, not just voices a person might hear in his or her head but real as you say, mind to mind. I'm actually studying your first post about your experienced, not because I agree myself with your whole entire theology as it were, as it wasn't mind experience personally as it was for you, but I believe as you do that it was an authentic mind-to-mind experience. I mean that what you wrote about, with Lucifer and Satan and God. I have to study it more, it all makes perfect "sense" to me as opposed to what people call "nonsense".
Sorry for such a long reply, it's early morning and here and still half-dazed from the sleep I just woke up from with a strong coffee.