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Lower than ever

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NordicGuy

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I'm feeling extremely low right now. Or depressed, I guess.

Today actually started out okay, but turned out just like the others. I'm always quiet and alone at school because of my insecurity. I try to maintain a facade, but I think it shows. Sure, I get spikes of confidence now and then, but it rarely lasts very long and is quickly replaced by self-loathing. Meanwhile, schoolwork's piling up because I'm too lazy to get it done. I'd rather just escape into the world of Netflix series and video games.

I feel like doing something I shouldn't. I feel like giving up on school altogether and just throw my life away. I feel like hurting myself or trying out drugs just for the hell of it. I'm thinking maybe I should just harden myself so I can't feel anything. Maybe I should just become arrogant and insensitive to compensate for my insecurity.

Whatever. I just needed to get this out.
 
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MarlieeB

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How are you feeling now?
 
LORD BURT

LORD BURT

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Maybe I should just become arrogant and insensitive to compensate for my insecurity.

Whatever. I just needed to get this out.
I like your insight.

When I was at school we did not have so many distractions. And when my parents were at school they had even less.

Times change.
 
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LORD BURT

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What appears to be lacking in life for you?
 
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