Love and Hate Being Bipolar

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Bosslash123

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Don't get me wrong I hate being bipolar. We all know the days we hate it. Days you find yourself jumping on your bed in front of cops, hospitalized, manically washing your walls or days on the couch. Days you let your dishes pile up, your garbage over flow. All you want to do is cry or scream. Separately or both at the same time.

This is not what I want to focus on. I want to talk about the things we love about being bipolar.

I love when I hand in a paper to my professor and she says...wow, no one has ever looked at it like that. I like it when I don't blend in. I like being custom built. I don't want to blend in. I am rememberable...not for being bipolar but for being me.
 
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I hate being bipolar generally and don't have good days like that. I'm on so many meds, I am quite flat a lot of the time. The only bit I miss is when all the colours are so vivid in the beginning of a manic episode.
 
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My days are not always so lovable. Here is one situation I hate that happens all the time...

If I have a bad day. If I show the slightest bit of an emotion. Like the day's I get so frustrated with mundane things, like a disagreement with my daughter about picking up wet towels off her floor. Or when my son refuses to clean his room or take out the garbage. My whole family immediately starts to think it's the beginning of an episode. They literally say...here we go. Mom's starting an episode.

Why can't I have feelings without it being an episode? I understand their knee jerk reaction but right now I'm stable. The ironic part is when they say that it just heightens my reaction. My reaction then turns into them saying...see, this is starting all over again.

It's NOT. I'm having an emotion. WTH.
 

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