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Lost my way

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hermitsoul

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I don't know where to start, I've never been good with words but I have try and let it all out, otherwise I don't what will become of me.everything seems so messed up, I don't remember the last time I felt something genuinely be it happiness, sadness I feel empty all the time I put on a fake smile but nowadays that too takes lot of effort.
I am loner by childhood but that's not a problem I had few good friends and that was fine,but when I was in my graduate studies my dad passed away ,he had cancer it was all downhill from there, but there was brief time of happiness in my life. I got a job I met really good friends and I fell in love but like always things started to take turn for worse my friends left me I found out my gf was cheating on me, I am a soft hearted guy I don't like seeing anyone hurt, so I trusted her again and again but she continued to do the same, I don't trust anyone anymore I lost faith in friendship and love.
Now I feel empty all the time I don't have anyone to talk I constantly have panic attacks.
Only reason I don't think about suicide is I don't want anyone to label me as a coward.
I have patience and I know I will pull through this
 
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Meadow Cat

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When life got hard, i isolated myself. It is more comfortable being alone when you need to recover from those hard times. You will need to get out again at some point though because we all need people in our lives, even if they are strangers or shop workers that recognise our face and talk about the weather.

Are you looking after yourself with a healthy diet, exercise and fresh air? I tend to comfort eat and not go out when down, and that makes me feels worse and lacking in energy. Exercise can really help.

I am sure you will trust again. It sounds like you were too nice and too forgiving. Don't let people treat you badly, you deserve better.

I'm sorry i cannot be of more help. I don't know what to say but wanted to reply. :hug:
 
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Fairy Lucretia

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hi ,welcome to the forum
im sorry you have been through so much
you are very welcome here

love Lu x


also this place helps me feel a little less sad and empty ,i hope it will you too x
 
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hermitsoul

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Thanks for your warm words, I feel better already
 
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