- Dec 6, 2014
Me and my boyfriend have been together for two years. Its been turbulent to say the least. The first 6 months were marred by his excessive drinking and bad behavior. Then he quit drinking and completely stepped up to the plate in treating me well, etc. But I remain stuck on the past and paranoid he will cheat or just flat out leave me for another. No particular "another".....it seems no one is out of my radar of who I will accuse him of cheating with. It hurts him a lot that despite all of his changes to make our relationship better, here we are a year and a half later and I am still a paranoid wreck. 3 days ago a couple moved into our apartment building. A COUPLE, as in a boyfriend and girlfriend...yet my mind still is full of obsessive thoughts my guy will pursue her or vice versa. I want no part of them and they are already asking us to "hang out". I am truly losing my mind. And this girl is just my latest fixation. There have been many others before. In fact to be honest I pretty much fill with paranoia whenever he is out of my sight. I do not know what to do. He says my lack of trust and my jealousy is going to destroy us. Please offer any advice or kind words please. I am losing it.