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bulldog1979
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Hi everyone,
I've tried to post once but I don't know where that's gone so I'll try again.
I was diagnosed 2 yrs ago with psychotic depression after 2yrs of struggling and nearly sectioned due to constant suicide threat. I hear 3 voices telling me to kill myself constantly.
My wife has struggled with this and been by my side but I'm losing her - I have caused her anxiety to manifest and this has opened the door to depression. The problem is I'm still not giving her what she needs our sex life since me being ill has dropped to 5-10% of what it was - I just don't get any sexual urge at all and it's killing our marriage.
How can I support her while suffering myself? She thinks I'm selfish and it's always about me - I try hard to ask and hug her if I see but I just don't see.
She says because I'm holding down a homebased sales job I'm fine but I just get through the day as best I can.and act ok to strangers. But when I'm home its as if im a differen person because i can stop pretending! But this has caused her to leave work now ans she keeps saying she kept me when i was ill so i cant not work now even more.
I don't know how I can help her I know it's awful to say and I just don't know what to do I'm trying my hardest to keep my head above water with these damn voices loud as ever!!!!!
Im seeing my psychiatrist nxt Friday (mthly appt)
Please any advice will be welcome I need help.
I've tried to post once but I don't know where that's gone so I'll try again.
I was diagnosed 2 yrs ago with psychotic depression after 2yrs of struggling and nearly sectioned due to constant suicide threat. I hear 3 voices telling me to kill myself constantly.
My wife has struggled with this and been by my side but I'm losing her - I have caused her anxiety to manifest and this has opened the door to depression. The problem is I'm still not giving her what she needs our sex life since me being ill has dropped to 5-10% of what it was - I just don't get any sexual urge at all and it's killing our marriage.
How can I support her while suffering myself? She thinks I'm selfish and it's always about me - I try hard to ask and hug her if I see but I just don't see.
She says because I'm holding down a homebased sales job I'm fine but I just get through the day as best I can.and act ok to strangers. But when I'm home its as if im a differen person because i can stop pretending! But this has caused her to leave work now ans she keeps saying she kept me when i was ill so i cant not work now even more.
I don't know how I can help her I know it's awful to say and I just don't know what to do I'm trying my hardest to keep my head above water with these damn voices loud as ever!!!!!
Im seeing my psychiatrist nxt Friday (mthly appt)
Please any advice will be welcome I need help.