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aufo8mycow
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Hi guys.
I'm a new member, so please forgive me putting this in the wrong place, I just hope some of you can help.
I know non of you are Doctors, so can't diagnose but perhaps some of you have the same symptoms as me, so can point me in the right direction.
I went to the Doctor today, he was so horrible, I couldn't tell him what was wrong with me, instead I talked about a mole that was a bit infected and my heartburn... he was so sharp with me, calling me by my surname, without even a Mr... it was almost like I had spoiled whatever it was he was doing before I walked in.. anyway, first time I have plucked up the courage to go in ages, now I feel, I'm just the royal pain in the arse.
Anyway, sorry, I can see this is getting too long already, Now I havn't been diagnosed with anything before, as I have always just 'got on with it'.. but over the last year, its been getting harder and harder... my symptoms are as follows:
Mum died about 10 years ago, not in grief now or anything.. but have been down for about 10 years.
I don't seem to be emotional in anyway
Anxious and jumpy most of the times, espcecially when I get up
Can't sleep at night, when I do get to sleep.. I end up getting up at 11am
Paranoid that people talk about me when I am outside... the way I look etc.
I get confused, for instance, I can be out driving somewhere and cannot remember where I am or where I am going.. only lasts say 30 seconds.. then I click
Really forgetful, down to someone asking perhaps for 2 apples and as soon as they have said it, I have forgotten.
Very Clumsy.
I feel life is pointless, even though I have a degree in Geology.. there is just no point to anything
I don't want to go outside, especially if there is alot of people
Was suicidal last year for a time.. although I'm not now
No motivation at all
Not sure if this means anything but I couldn't talk until I was nearly 4, everyone thought I was deaf.. and I couldn't add up until I was 8 or tell the time.. as an adult I am dyslexic.. but not sure if I have something even from childhood, that is coming out in these symptoms.. not sure.
I do have high blood pressure, I am in my 20's and male.. I am also Gay.. which I know for a lot of people can lead to mental health problems.. however, I don't have an issue with my sexuality, so don't think it's that.
Also, now as I write this I know what you will all think... but I do see Ghosts.. and have done since I was 2 years old, however I have been seeing and feeling more lately which I feel has something to do with how I am feeling.. but obviously, being scared doesn't help your mental process' I don't hear voices usually.. although have heard my mum a couple of times, or someone calling my name.. but I see words, if that makes sense.. like names.. so I'm guessing it's not schizophrenia.
Anyway, that's about it really.. I think in all of that I am trying to say I feel down but it's stopping me making friends and I feel so lonley.
If anyone has the same issues, perhaps you can right them here or get in touch as I feel I have lost the plot.
Thanks again and sorry it was so long.
Chris
I'm a new member, so please forgive me putting this in the wrong place, I just hope some of you can help.
I know non of you are Doctors, so can't diagnose but perhaps some of you have the same symptoms as me, so can point me in the right direction.
I went to the Doctor today, he was so horrible, I couldn't tell him what was wrong with me, instead I talked about a mole that was a bit infected and my heartburn... he was so sharp with me, calling me by my surname, without even a Mr... it was almost like I had spoiled whatever it was he was doing before I walked in.. anyway, first time I have plucked up the courage to go in ages, now I feel, I'm just the royal pain in the arse.
Anyway, sorry, I can see this is getting too long already, Now I havn't been diagnosed with anything before, as I have always just 'got on with it'.. but over the last year, its been getting harder and harder... my symptoms are as follows:
Mum died about 10 years ago, not in grief now or anything.. but have been down for about 10 years.
I don't seem to be emotional in anyway
Anxious and jumpy most of the times, espcecially when I get up
Can't sleep at night, when I do get to sleep.. I end up getting up at 11am
Paranoid that people talk about me when I am outside... the way I look etc.
I get confused, for instance, I can be out driving somewhere and cannot remember where I am or where I am going.. only lasts say 30 seconds.. then I click
Really forgetful, down to someone asking perhaps for 2 apples and as soon as they have said it, I have forgotten.
Very Clumsy.
I feel life is pointless, even though I have a degree in Geology.. there is just no point to anything
I don't want to go outside, especially if there is alot of people
Was suicidal last year for a time.. although I'm not now
No motivation at all
Not sure if this means anything but I couldn't talk until I was nearly 4, everyone thought I was deaf.. and I couldn't add up until I was 8 or tell the time.. as an adult I am dyslexic.. but not sure if I have something even from childhood, that is coming out in these symptoms.. not sure.
I do have high blood pressure, I am in my 20's and male.. I am also Gay.. which I know for a lot of people can lead to mental health problems.. however, I don't have an issue with my sexuality, so don't think it's that.
Also, now as I write this I know what you will all think... but I do see Ghosts.. and have done since I was 2 years old, however I have been seeing and feeling more lately which I feel has something to do with how I am feeling.. but obviously, being scared doesn't help your mental process' I don't hear voices usually.. although have heard my mum a couple of times, or someone calling my name.. but I see words, if that makes sense.. like names.. so I'm guessing it's not schizophrenia.
Anyway, that's about it really.. I think in all of that I am trying to say I feel down but it's stopping me making friends and I feel so lonley.
If anyone has the same issues, perhaps you can right them here or get in touch as I feel I have lost the plot.
Thanks again and sorry it was so long.
Chris
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