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Loosing my mind....help

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kiki101

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Hi I don’t really post on here much but here goes...

I have been diagnosed with OCD, depression, and anxiety. Im a university student living at home with my mum and brother (I was living at uni but my flat mates got tired of my depression and asked me to move out~ they weren’t very nice people). I’ve had OCD and anxiety since I was 7 triggered by my parents divorce (lots of hitting, screaming, shouting, and death threats) and depression since I was 15. I’ve been finding it really difficult to be around my mum, or anyone really, as she is constantly stressed and angry with me because of everything (she used to take out her anger a lot on me when I was younger and she still does a bit) I really love her and a lot of my ocd is about protecting her from harm, but she just doesn’t understand what I’m going through at all she just gets annoyed at me and used to make fun of me for my OCD rituals. I’m at my wits end with her and I don’t know what to do she’s a really good mum and I love her, but no matter how many times I try to explain this to her she just gets fed up. I know it is difficult for her too but she’s doesn’t seem to see how difficult it is for me to do day to day things. I don’t know what to do apart from self harm and I’m constantly upset and in my room dreading uni any help and advice would be very appreciated

Thank you
 
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Aw3092

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Jan 14, 2018
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I would definitely recommend a therapist to help treat your ocd symptoms. I experienced something like this a few years ago and once I started going to therapy and taking medication things improved a lot. Obviously the problems with your mom don't help the situation. A therapist may be able to help you get that sorted too or at least help create an understanding between the two of you. Any kind of stress makes everything worse I know. It looks like not only are you stressed at uni but at home as well because of the tensions over your illness. If you don't or can't try meds or therapy or both I would suggest creating a safe space at home for you to relax and destress if possible. I have calming rain sounds on an app in my phone which helps me destress. Best of luck, hopefully this helps.
 
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rachelangelo

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Thanks for being open and sharing. It seems to me that we have similar stories. I dealt with OCD for years--triggered by my parent's horrible marriage. My mom has always been supportive, though. For me, seeing a therapist really helped. I, also, spoke with others who had dealt with similar situations. Just knowing that I wasn't alone made a world of difference. Keep hope.
 
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