- Dec 24, 2013
I'm so afraid that my anxious behaviour is going to push people away. I'm worried that obsessing over small things is going to make people think I'm crazy. I'm worried that people may be talking about me and judging me on what I've said/done. I'm also feeling on edge because my love life is a disaster, took a while to come to terms with a break up even though it was the right thing to do, and got blindsided by a ghost from the past reappearing. This did not help, and complicated matters. I've come to terms with the break up but the ghost from my past keeps appearing when I least expect it and it's knocking me for six. I'm afraid that they think less of me now too because of my reckless behaviour while I was going through a rough time. And I'm trying to mentally prepare myself and make myself stronger so that I can deal with the situation better. Because I feel pathetic when my anxiety flares up around him and I tend to avoid things that make me anxious, so I'm worried that I look childish/bitter because of this. I'm normally a laid back easy going person so it's hard dealing with this, I don't feel like me.