So I've been self-injuring since I was 6 (19 years), and I'm about two or three weeks clean. But I feel like I'm on the verge of another relapse. Part of it is that I'm battling ptsd and depression, and part of it is that I just got into a new relationship and when they're with me, I feel so good that when they're gone, I get lonely and depressed. I told them I'd try to stop self-injuring, but right now I just miss my... tool that I self-injure with so much. I always self-injured when I was lonely or depressed, and right now, I'm both. I don't know if I just miss my partner, or if it's more than that. Because I feel like if it were just that, then calling or texting them would solve the problem, but (spoilers) it didn't. I don't know if this is the start of a depressive episode, or if I genuinely need a lifestyle change so that I don't feel lonely and depressed and useless when I go home and am all alone. I guess my question (after all the rambling) is how do I deal with the fact that the desire to self-injure is always coming back?