
Snowflake3008
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Hey, today I've just been so down it's unreal. I've been crying constantly and I'm not sure why.
At first, I thought it's because I won't be able to get in touch with my long-term boyfriend for a week, we're very close and talk way too much, and he's on a camp with the Air Cadets (how we met, not that you need to know) but I don't think it is, it's unlike me to cry on the day he leaves.
Then this evening, I ended up having a bit of an arguement with my parents, and somehow it ended with my Dad saying "It's about time you got a job so you can pay for things yourself instead of asking us to do it, you can't make any excuses because you do nothing and go to sleep at 4 in the morning."
Yes, I should probably get a job, but college starts in less than a month and I've only been 16 for a week. I tried to get a paper round but I got turned down, and I think the chance of me getting a job with the recession is low. Yet he always goes on about it.
Next thing, someone points out to me I need to get a hobby so I don't miss people as much when they go away. ( I depend on my friends a little bit too much I suppose, yet they always come to me with their problems so I think it's okay ) then it made me realise I really don't have a life, I get up around 12pm, eat, go on msn, eat, watch tv, eat, sleep.
I know that the solution to the problem is get a hobby or do something with my life but I have NO motivation what so ever, and I can see myself spiralling down even further for the next week until I can talk to my boyfriend again, I still don't know if I'll be better after that.
There's nothing really around here that interests me ( I live in a village and it costs a lot to get into town, money which I don't have ) and I feel like I should get a hobby which would make me feel good about myself, but I suppose I'm just to scared that I'll screw up and make myself feel even worse.
I have a feeling it might be motiviation problems and low self esteem but I don't understand why I'd be upset before the argument, as I'm not too upset (yet) about Paul being away for a week.
One more thing before I go, I don't know if I really suffer from depression or not, because everyone gets upset at times, and some of the people on here suffer from quite serious mental illness's, and I just want to hope them all the best. But even though my problems are quite petit, I feel like I need some sort of guidance. I just don't know what to do with my life, I don't even know where I want my A-levels to take me. I just feel so lost, I've even considered turning to alcohol, I have a few times, I used to cut too, but I upset a lot of people doing so, and I've now stopped. But I know I shouldn't go down both roads if I can control myself, but I'm always quite tempted to have drink to give me a quick buzz of happiness. It's really not good considering in the eyes of the law I shouldn't be drinking for another 2 years. Please help me, I don't know what to do :'(
Love Danni xxx
At first, I thought it's because I won't be able to get in touch with my long-term boyfriend for a week, we're very close and talk way too much, and he's on a camp with the Air Cadets (how we met, not that you need to know) but I don't think it is, it's unlike me to cry on the day he leaves.
Then this evening, I ended up having a bit of an arguement with my parents, and somehow it ended with my Dad saying "It's about time you got a job so you can pay for things yourself instead of asking us to do it, you can't make any excuses because you do nothing and go to sleep at 4 in the morning."
Yes, I should probably get a job, but college starts in less than a month and I've only been 16 for a week. I tried to get a paper round but I got turned down, and I think the chance of me getting a job with the recession is low. Yet he always goes on about it.
Next thing, someone points out to me I need to get a hobby so I don't miss people as much when they go away. ( I depend on my friends a little bit too much I suppose, yet they always come to me with their problems so I think it's okay ) then it made me realise I really don't have a life, I get up around 12pm, eat, go on msn, eat, watch tv, eat, sleep.
I know that the solution to the problem is get a hobby or do something with my life but I have NO motivation what so ever, and I can see myself spiralling down even further for the next week until I can talk to my boyfriend again, I still don't know if I'll be better after that.
There's nothing really around here that interests me ( I live in a village and it costs a lot to get into town, money which I don't have ) and I feel like I should get a hobby which would make me feel good about myself, but I suppose I'm just to scared that I'll screw up and make myself feel even worse.
I have a feeling it might be motiviation problems and low self esteem but I don't understand why I'd be upset before the argument, as I'm not too upset (yet) about Paul being away for a week.
One more thing before I go, I don't know if I really suffer from depression or not, because everyone gets upset at times, and some of the people on here suffer from quite serious mental illness's, and I just want to hope them all the best. But even though my problems are quite petit, I feel like I need some sort of guidance. I just don't know what to do with my life, I don't even know where I want my A-levels to take me. I just feel so lost, I've even considered turning to alcohol, I have a few times, I used to cut too, but I upset a lot of people doing so, and I've now stopped. But I know I shouldn't go down both roads if I can control myself, but I'm always quite tempted to have drink to give me a quick buzz of happiness. It's really not good considering in the eyes of the law I shouldn't be drinking for another 2 years. Please help me, I don't know what to do :'(
Love Danni xxx