- Mar 6, 2016
The meds make me happy and content but when I look at my life, I can only think I should be ashamed, full of regret and depressed. I don't deserve to be happy and content. I feel like I haven't earned it. The happiness and contentment I feel is fake. It's not authentic. But if I go off my meds I will become sick again. I have to stay on these pills. But I feel like they make me less human. But I guess I'd rather be less human than terribly sick. So I'll stay on my pills...for everyone else's sake.