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simonsmith20092009
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I am going through a dilema at the moment and feel my life is being presented with one path ahead of me. A path which could transfrom from a jovial walk through the park into a path through the thickest of jungles, full of venomous spiders, plants and other creatures of night.
My life is almost like being on a desert island, where I have been stranded for years. A boat came past a few years ago offering me a lift of the island, I reluctantly jumped on the boat as I had heard a few stories about their darker side but had to hitch a lift so jumped on. The journey was a bit of a rollercoaster ride and the other shipmates and I did not get on all the time. I was going through a bad phase of social anxiety and/or personal issues and I think I may have turned on the shipmates. I was going through a bad phase and was spurting out allot of venom.
The people giving me the ride may have done something as a result. something nasty to me. There are tell tale signs that something happened but i just dont have any evidence. I was thinking about going to doctors but its so emabarresing.
I then jumped of the boat for a while hoping I could pursue my life with them not being part of it but have found the life has stalled again and have found myslef stranded on another desert island (lonely, socially disconnected, not in relationship, no job, no money, no life).
I am in such desperation at moment that I have had to go back to this ship (group of people). the people who may have done the dirty and try and grab another ride. Only this time I have had time to calm down and am now aware of the social etiuqette.
The trouble is I dont know what lies ahead of me. This is why i don't know if I am about to emabark on another journey or rollercoaster ride from hell.
If i stay on this island I just dont know when the next boat (group of friends/associates) will come from and i dont want to vegeatate any more.
My life is almost like being on a desert island, where I have been stranded for years. A boat came past a few years ago offering me a lift of the island, I reluctantly jumped on the boat as I had heard a few stories about their darker side but had to hitch a lift so jumped on. The journey was a bit of a rollercoaster ride and the other shipmates and I did not get on all the time. I was going through a bad phase of social anxiety and/or personal issues and I think I may have turned on the shipmates. I was going through a bad phase and was spurting out allot of venom.
The people giving me the ride may have done something as a result. something nasty to me. There are tell tale signs that something happened but i just dont have any evidence. I was thinking about going to doctors but its so emabarresing.
I then jumped of the boat for a while hoping I could pursue my life with them not being part of it but have found the life has stalled again and have found myslef stranded on another desert island (lonely, socially disconnected, not in relationship, no job, no money, no life).
I am in such desperation at moment that I have had to go back to this ship (group of people). the people who may have done the dirty and try and grab another ride. Only this time I have had time to calm down and am now aware of the social etiuqette.
The trouble is I dont know what lies ahead of me. This is why i don't know if I am about to emabark on another journey or rollercoaster ride from hell.
If i stay on this island I just dont know when the next boat (group of friends/associates) will come from and i dont want to vegeatate any more.