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Nina24
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Hi, new here, but been lurking for a few weeks.
I have depression and anxiety but I've been unable to function normally for over 8 months. I have panic attacks, insomnia and get suicidal.
I have not been working as it involves interacting with people and this scares me; even seeing colleagues.
This is not covid related, as on a good day I can go to the supermarket with my husband, but there aren't many of those.
I have a CPN and started CBT about 4 months ago, I find it difficult as I don't feel, I'm either straight into panic or numb.
I take sertraline 150mg but have felt a nothingness for much of my life.
I have a history of childhood trauma and sexual assault.
I can feel things are slipping again, I'll find myself over the pills thinking how easy it would be to take too many, and struggling to get up as life is just not worth doing any more.
I like meditation and try to do it and I feel good immediately after, but then the negative thoughts creep back.
I want to feel joy again but don't know how.
I have depression and anxiety but I've been unable to function normally for over 8 months. I have panic attacks, insomnia and get suicidal.
I have not been working as it involves interacting with people and this scares me; even seeing colleagues.
This is not covid related, as on a good day I can go to the supermarket with my husband, but there aren't many of those.
I have a CPN and started CBT about 4 months ago, I find it difficult as I don't feel, I'm either straight into panic or numb.
I take sertraline 150mg but have felt a nothingness for much of my life.
I have a history of childhood trauma and sexual assault.
I can feel things are slipping again, I'll find myself over the pills thinking how easy it would be to take too many, and struggling to get up as life is just not worth doing any more.
I like meditation and try to do it and I feel good immediately after, but then the negative thoughts creep back.
I want to feel joy again but don't know how.