- Apr 3, 2015
- Too far from home
Bit of a brain dump. I am really working hard to let go of my anxiety. It's plagued me for most of my life. I've struggled with what I realise was/ is codependency. I am on my own now. Been through depression, panic attacks etc. but it seems to be so hard to let go of anxiety and the depression that goes with it. Is it because I am so scared that the anxiety will leave a hole that will be replaced by something worse or is it that I just don't believe I can be anxiety free and therefore won't or can't let it happen? The thought of continuing this way for the rest of my life is so horrible. At the moment I am not feeling great physically which lets the whole anxiety demon really grow. How will I manage when I am even older and not able to do stuff physically. I know I don't always feel as bad as I do now but the fear is always there. I work, have friends and look like a functioning person but every morning and at the moment all day I am battling and battling to get through.