- Oct 12, 2020
Good evening all, this is my first time on a forum so I apologise if this is posted in the wrong area. So basically I'm a 34 year old male and for as long as I can remember iv been extremely unhappy, iv never been to a doctors before but its severe. I suffer with depression, severe social anxiety, suicidal thoughts. I have spent my life without friends and avoiding social events. although iv had partners its always failed because of the way I behave. Iv always self harmed and kept it very secret but in April this year I overdosed after consuming a large amount of alcohol and injured myself several times pretty severely and then I passed out, waking up with an ambulance crew around me, I got took to the hospital around 9pm and they attended to my wounds sat me down with a mental health consultant who said he was referring me to my gp for urgent help. well its now October and not heard a thing, I moved back in with my parents and haven't been out of the house apart from to work. nothing seems to be getting better and I just feel extremely let down by the NHS, I know they must be very overwhelmed but there isn't a minute of the day goes by where I don't think suicidal thoughts and its getting too much for me now.the problem is I do not have a single friend or anyone to talk to so I can take my mind off things its just me and my thoughts all the time. I don't know what steps to take next because I just feel like giving up as I'm wasting my time carrying on living for no reason.