- Jan 1, 2021
Hey, thank you for taking the time to repond.Hi I've been reading this and I had someone in my life whom I loved. I though I loved him anyway, he could be so nice but than he would turn cold as ice. He was a Dr Jeckel and Mr Hyde type. He abused me emotionally, I loved him so I let him. One time he threatened me saying I was stalking him, lol! He lived in another state and I never went there. He lied to me making promises he didn't keep. He finally stopped all communication with me with no explanation. Your husband sounds a little like him. He needs to grow up and the way he treats you is UNACCEPTABLE. The man I told you about broke my heart and I'll never be the same, never. I let him out of love and loneliness I wish you good luck, would marriage counseling help?
I don't really know - I am a problem which I know, but he is no saint either. I just feel unable to point out the things that bother me about him - because I have BPD I feel like the little things that annoy me are just nothing so I don't pursue them. But the resentment has eventually built all the same. I think that if we broke up, it would be a situation where I never date again because I had everything and was stupid enough to let it go. Not only that, but I am being reminded of how much of a blight I am on others' lives. Sometimes I wish I had died. Life has it's good parts but when the painful bits are so bad, it makes me wonder if it's all really worth it. I couldn't do that to my family though. I know I'll just probably end up living an average life and hopefully not be in too much pain for most of it.