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valleygirl

valleygirl

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My family will be doing Christmas dinner and gifts tomorrow on Boxing Day, if my sister and brother-in-law can make it through the mountains. All I want to do is stay snug in my bed with the covers pulled up to my chin. I don't feel like seeing anyone or trying to pretend to be happy for everyone else who is pretending to be happy at Christmas. I am feeling very, very depressed right now.
 
LostSoul89

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Hi ValleyGirl,

I'm the same because I've always been a recluse & rarely ever leave my room. This year is the toughest for those suffering like you, me & many others. It's particularly distressing because everyone is partying & having an amazing time which leaves us feeling even worse.

Remember though that a lot of people are emotionally balanced wereas we're not. Depression significantly messes with that balance which robs us of those feelings that come so naturally to others. Its so easy to fall into depression hence why so many suffer with it. I'm not even going out New years because I ain't forcing myself when I feel awful. Today I had my Turkey, watched Jungle book & thats my Christmas done lol.
 
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All I want to do is stay snug in my bed with the covers pulled up to my chin. I don't feel like seeing anyone or trying to pretend to be happy for everyone else who is pretending to be happy at Christmas. I am feeling very, very depressed right now.
I feel you. Staying in bed sounds so nice and it's an option. I compelled myself to socialize with family and friends this year in spite of concerns about my symptoms but it hasn't been the case in other years.

I recently became aware that my presence - depressed and anxious, such as I am - wasn't merely something expected of me - a duty or demand. Rather, people in my life sincerely missed my presence. I don't mean my role as their dishwasher, cook or driver.

Whenever anyone mentioned it I just didn't believe them. People aren't always very clear in how they communicate emotional loss and by this I mean that there is a "me-shaped" hole in their lives that cannot be filled. I wrestled with feelings of guilt and conceit over this.

Ultimately I decided if I could get my symptoms under control, I would make an effort to participate. I can't always manage it and holidays are particularly challenging. I set limits and cope ahead best that I'm able.

I think it's okay if you can't function and need to bunker in the home, that's how it goes some days. If your functionality is okay, consider your need for contact. Challenge negative thoughts about yourself by remembering that there is no other you but you for the people in your life.

Wishing you a happy-crappy holiday, from a fellow struggler with depression.
 
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MiserableGal

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I don't think I suffer from depression, but I feel at my happiest when I am sleeping. Or, just snuggled up in bed with a good book or a good sitcom to binge on. I think it's just as valid a way of enjoying as partying or any other such activity.
 
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MiserableGal

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In India, we have Diwali which could be the equivalent of Christmas. It can be really depressing watching people go around being so cheery 24/7. People really shouldn't enforce their cheeriness on others. Commiserations from my side.
 
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