Just want an opinion.

[Caylyn]

First, I’m sorry if a similar situation has already been posted. I am simply hoping for an opinion on if I should be concerned or not. I have G.A.D. And have always had body image issues to a certain degree. It has never been terrible until the last couple of months. My life has changed in many ways and I now weigh more than I ever have. I am scared I am on the road to developing an eating disorder as I think I am starting some bad habits. Now, i assume these are coming on due to the life changes and feeling a bit out of control + the weight gain. My habits are that I have been planning meals and counting calories (I get a bit anxious if the calories I have left get to be too low of a number). I also have been purging but not habitually. I would say 1-4x a week if I eat fast food or something really filling. I do at home exercises every day, it is nothing excessive. Some days I can eat completely normally and have no worries but then other times I get really worked up about it and count my chews, get nervous about some foods, look up photos of fit people, count calories, etc. I tend to weigh myself once a day or every other day when I used to not care about it at all. I am finding it hard to focus on anything but my weight and eating habits and the guilt I feel when Think i eat more than I probably should. I have a pretty large fear of gaining any more weight and feel very low about myself right now. I guess I am scared of where I am headed and am wondering if it sounds like I should be too worried. Part of me is confused because, like I said, I can sometimes go a day or half the day without caring at all then it hits me all of a sudden that I need to do these things. Please someone help! I have no one I feel comfortable opening up to about this.

 

[Roseessa]

Hi,
Are you in therapy or seeing anyone for this?
Have you talked to the doctors about this?
Why do you feel the need to purge?

 

[Caylyn]

I haven’t seen anyone for this partially because I am scared to talk to people about personal issues and partially because I feel that I don’t want to waste their time if it is not a big enough concern. My mom has looked into therapists for my anxiety but they seem to be few and far between near me without a long drive. I purge when I feel really full which makes me feel guilty because i feel it was way too many calories. This is more frequent if I eat a large lunch or breakfast because I am worried about the fact that I’ll want to eat dinner with my family and we tend to always eat large homemade meals together.

 

[Roseessa]

I think you really need to talk to someone about this, maybe just mention it to your doctor as people shouldn't be purging.

 

[Mayflower7]

Hi Caylyn,
Welcome to the forum
Please see your GP, they will be able to help you.
Here to listen, I have weight issues too.
You can pm ( private message) me or post on this thread.
Good luck in your journey, hope life is kinder to you.