- May 31, 2011
Okay so over the last couple of weeks I've been self harming nearly every night. I feel like I just can't cope with everything going on right now. I'm in the middle of sitting my exams and they're really stressing me out, but the thing that is getting to me most is the relationship I'm in. If anything goes wrong between us, the blame always gets shifted onto me, which makes me want to punish myself. However I don't want to leave as he is the only person I've really let in for the last 2 years and I would feel even more on my own without him. I just feel I need someone who understands to talk to as right now I feel completely lost and alone. All my friends think think self harmers are attention seekers, and this makes me feel more isolated. I know I do it to regain some control over my life, because people are constantly letting me down and hurting me, and at least by hurting myself I feel in control of the pain I experience. Sorry for a really long ramble, I just think my self harming is getting worse and worse and it would be really helpful to me just to know that I'm not alone with what I'm experiencing.
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