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hannasus
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I feel so down, I don't know where to start, but having read some of the other posts I feel sure that you will understand. I've never talked properly about this to anyone, even though it's been going on for years. I'm getting to the stage now where I'm regularly going in to the toilets to cry at work (Sometimes there's some tiny trigger, but often just for no reason) and at least a couple of times a week I end up spending the evening crying. Usually for no reason - just because the feelings are so bad - but it seems like anything can set me off. My confidence at work and in my personal life is really low. There's nothing really wrong in my life, so why am I so sad?
So your advice would be to talk to my GP or a friend, right? The problem is I don't know how to talk to anybody about my feelings- I'm just about ok writing this, but it has taken me several months to build up the courage to do it! I tried to talk to a doctor a few years back, but I don't know if it was because I ended up talking about it so calmly that she suggested I just "wait and see if it goes away" - I tried to explain that was what I'd been doing for years and it was actually getting worse, but she didn't offer anything else.
The only time I feel ok is when I'm with my boyfriend, but I don't want to rely on him all the time to cheer me up. When we first started seeing each other I tried to hide it from him, but as we started seeing each other more he noticed when I was quiet or when I'd try to hide the tears. I don't know how to explain it to him - the words just don't come out and he's trying to be understanding, but he's clearly frustrated that I just clam up when I get unhappy. Matters aren't made any better now that he's just found out his dad's got cancer - I've gone back to trying to hide my unhappiness from him because I don't want to pile anything else on him.
Anyway I think I've written enough. I don't know what I expect you to say. It would be nice to hear any advice or similar experiences you've had (most of the stuff I've read had depression triggered by some event or unhappy circumstances, but I can't see any reason why I feel like this
).
So your advice would be to talk to my GP or a friend, right? The problem is I don't know how to talk to anybody about my feelings- I'm just about ok writing this, but it has taken me several months to build up the courage to do it! I tried to talk to a doctor a few years back, but I don't know if it was because I ended up talking about it so calmly that she suggested I just "wait and see if it goes away" - I tried to explain that was what I'd been doing for years and it was actually getting worse, but she didn't offer anything else.
The only time I feel ok is when I'm with my boyfriend, but I don't want to rely on him all the time to cheer me up. When we first started seeing each other I tried to hide it from him, but as we started seeing each other more he noticed when I was quiet or when I'd try to hide the tears. I don't know how to explain it to him - the words just don't come out and he's trying to be understanding, but he's clearly frustrated that I just clam up when I get unhappy. Matters aren't made any better now that he's just found out his dad's got cancer - I've gone back to trying to hide my unhappiness from him because I don't want to pile anything else on him.
Anyway I think I've written enough. I don't know what I expect you to say. It would be nice to hear any advice or similar experiences you've had (most of the stuff I've read had depression triggered by some event or unhappy circumstances, but I can't see any reason why I feel like this
