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TinyGabe

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Hello. I'm not too sure how all this works with the posting and whatnot, but I'm looking for people to speak with about anxiety, depression, and anger problems.

I'm thirty nine years old. I recently lost my father to dementia and my brother to cancer. They died with many unresolved issues between us. I'm estranged from my mom. I've suffered from behavioral problems my whole life. I've moved to Guelph from my home province and started my own family, but things have been rough. I'm trying to get it together for my wife, seven year old stepson, and my one year old natural son. Over the years I've been through counseling here and there, I've been committed to a mental institution, and suffered numerous manic and other episodes. It seems that here in Guelph, unless there is evidence of psychosis or one has money to pay for private counseling, it's difficult to get help.

These days I feel half scared all the time, or depressed, or angry about things and people long past. I've never been violent towards people (but furniture and phones definitely take a beating). I know I'm not well, but it's difficult because it's hard for others to see, even though it has cost me my family relations, all of my childhood friends, and numerous jobs.

There's more-there always is-but yeah, that's where I'll leave it for now. If anyone would like to talk, share their experiences, I'd really appreciate it. Thanks for reading.
 
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Victorianna

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California, USA
Hello, Gabe, and welcome. I’m sorry for the loss of your father and brother.
I had to look up Guelph - it’s in Canada? There is no way to access any mental health services, even if it’s just through your regular doctor?
I think you’ll find helpful people on this forum, who know what it’s like to deal with anxiety and depression.
My experience has been that medication has helped me a lot. I have to take an antidepressant every day. I’m slowly tapering off an anti-anxiety medicine - it’s a benzodiazepine, so I can’t stay on it for long. I don’t think I could be as functional as I am without the medicine.
 
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TinyGabe

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Yes, it's in Canada.

Unfortunately, medication is not the answer for me. I was on heavy antidepressants for over 10 years and suffered problems throughout. The doctor who prescribed them didn't really give me therapy: whenever I came to him with a problem, he'd say: "Okay, we'll adjust your medication. Anything else?" When I came here I sought out a new psychiatrist, and after waiting a year and three months to see one, I was placed in a short group therapy program and was discharged from the care of the psychiatrist after two one-on-one appointments.

During the second of those, the doctor kept looking at her watch and provided short, curt answers to my problems. Then I was turned away. I felt like an interruption to her day.

Additionally, the type of antidepressants that would be-and have been-prescribed to me are having their efficacy questioned by reputable media outlets. I'm not saying medication doesn't work in all cases, but I've dealt with meds long enough to know that if they worked for me, well, they would have worked by now.

Thanks for your concern, though.
 
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