- Jan 14, 2019
Hello everyone, im new to the forum and am looking for some answers. I am a 21 year old maintenance worker and i have been having some issues recently leading me to believe this might not be something i can easily push to the side or get over. For the past 6-8 months i have been seeing random hallucinations and hearing very sinister voices in my head. I realize that they are not physical and but they have been getting harder and harder to ignore. They started as whispers but have since gained volume. Sometimes its orders to do unforgivable acts and other times they speak to me with dark undertones. I thought it might have to do with anxiety because i have been diagnosed with acute stress disorder but even when theres no stress i still hear them. They make me feel paranoid but im not afraid of them because i have lost any control other than being unable to make the voices subside. Im not going to lie, I originally thought this had to do with the fact that 3 years ago i had tried illegeal recreation drugs. The hallucinations Im having reminded me of the trip/episode you have when taking LSD however i found that it was not the same because of the darker undertones to the visuals. Right before this all started i passed out in my apartment (8 months ago) and ended up in the ER on stroke alert. Three days later i started feeling better and once i felt good enough to walk again they sent me home with the conclusion that it was all stress, No stroke. I started hearing and seeing things after that and it has caused me to fall into a very depressed state of mind that i cannot fix.Im only looking for an explanation is because i am starting to not perform at work as proficient as i was before and i have a 9 month old son to provide for. Now that my everyday life is being affected im searching for answer to figure out what this might be and How to Fix it. (Side note- I am not on nor have been on any medications since my ER visit. I had to resort to medical M for my anxiety because I am unable get a doctor to see me.