Just been accepted to a minimum stay of 12 weeks maybe longer if needed

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just thought id update you all today so yesterday i was attacked by the other patient within 24 hours of the last time he was put on 1 to 1 and all that bs but he still went for me in a room full of people at a persons party and gobbed over the guy restraining him it feels like ive done a 180 my anxiety is so fucking high i didn't go on walks i went home until Tuesday because i am afraid he is going to wait behind my bedroom door and attack me with something he goes off like a flick of the switch it took me over 7 months to get to this place now i left due to this **** i am back on tuesday to see how ward round will solve this i am afraid they will not move him i fear for my safety i will defend myself but i cant still with this and the added stress of the other patient who fucking follows and stairs and me not to mention coming back at home has reactivated some of the same behaviour i did before i went into hospital self isolation etc not sure if that is because i feel low about the situation with the other patient trying to kill me or run down maybe both not to mention have tough psych session i just dont think they are doing enough he should not be here he attacked me twice

i will talk to a advocate this is hindering my recovery also i have a had a bunch of problems i would not of had at hospital but i dont feel safe there even though they promise he is in the icu under multiple nurses they said that on the morning put into place all these bullshit safeguards then he attacked me in a room full of people i will write a load of notes for ward round depending on how that is handled we will see what will happen i dont want to leave i have started to slip back to before i cant go if thats happen i know what i am going to do sorry but suicide feels like the solution i have started to have more thoughts of killing myself just in the past day
 
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just thought id update you all today so yesterday i was attacked by the other patient within 24 hours of the last time he was put on 1 to 1 and all that bs but he still went for me in a room full of people at a persons party and gobbed over the guy restraining him it feels like ive done a 180 my anxiety is so fucking high i didn't go on walks i went home until Tuesday because i am afraid he is going to wait behind my bedroom door and attack me with something he goes off like a flick of the switch it took me over 7 months to get to this place now i left due to this **** i am back on tuesday to see how ward round will solve this i am afraid they will not move him i fear for my safety i will defend myself but i cant still with this and the added stress of the other patient who fucking follows and stairs and me not to mention coming back at home has reactivated some of the same behaviour i did before i went into hospital self isolation etc not sure if that is because i feel low about the situation with the other patient trying to kill me or run down maybe both not to mention have tough psych session i just dont think they are doing enough he should not be here he attacked me twice

i will talk to a advocate this is hindering my recovery also i have a had a bunch of problems i would not of had at hospital but i dont feel safe there even though they promise he is in the icu under multiple nurses they said that on the morning put into place all these bullshit safeguards then he attacked me in a room full of people i will write a load of notes for ward round depending on how that is handled we will see what will happen i dont want to leave i have started to slip back to before i cant go if thats happen i know what i am going to do sorry but suicide feels like the solution i have started to have more thoughts of killing myself just in the past day
Please don't think suicide :hug: your safer at home at the moment till he's been sorted out, i'm surprised they've not injected him and knocked him out for a solid 24hrs then put him a room on 24/7 watch which they can do.
Surely there must be other wards he can be moved to or even strained down (Strapped) as I was and it's to stop you harming others besides yourself.

There's many options on how to stop him yet none is being taken it just surprises me :scratcheshead:

You need to go and express like I said how you was gaining confidence in yourself, anxiety lowering, walking helping you and since it's happened how it's throwed your emotions all over the show, just watch mentioning suicide as you can be sectioned on that. :love: Abby
 
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Hey Punch.

Hun, I'm so sorry this has happened - but it HAS - and we can get past it.

(Yes - 'WE' - you have the force of a whole community here behind you.)

You were on course for better health - doing great - and now you've had to brake hard because of this fallen tree in the middle of the road...

Are you going to go home and forget your own journey?

Or find a way around the tree and carry on?

This guy is mentally ill and entirely random. He has no plan or agenda - he's out of control.

You're NOT.

You have targets...goals..plans...and you've been making these things your reality. We are so proud of you.

You can think your way around the obstacle. Relax - you're safe at home - and you won't encounter this guy again.

If it was me, I would be contacting my local MP urgently - they are accessible and more than happy to fight on your behalf. They also have a great deal of clout.

Here's a search engine if you don't know your local MP's name - most run appointment clinics or will respond to emails extremely promptly in my experience.

www.theyworkforyou.com/mp/

The salient points are that your recovery has been set back by two physical attacks and the necessary evacuation of your hospital, interrupting your care. You have received additional trauma and had existing conditions triggered through the hospital not acting sooner.

The negotiation points are that you are suited to an open facility, whereas your attacker is not. You require full assurance that he will be relocated or your own care resumed at another, preferred location. Additional support and therapy is needed to get over the fresh trauma you sustained under the hospital's care.

If you get the backing from your MP, the hospital becomes under scrutiny and they will decide quickly how to channel their efforts to serve their own interests.

Any help you need - I'm here. Just PM.

Meantime - carry on with the routines you had established in hospital. Exercise - give those feet the attention they deserve - none of your goals have changed or been removed.

If you can get practical support and advice at home - talk to your folks. Tell them how well you were doing and explain how this has made you feel.

Punch - there's a way around this fallen tree - and you 'll find it. You are so determined, I know you can get your head straight again. Your attacker was mentally ill and totally irresponsible. That's not who YOU are. Poor soul might never have the opportunities you have. Don't think of this in personal terms - he's just an obstruction on your journey. Any emotion you waste on him is draining the energy that was being channelled towards your own future.

Have a good sleep. Stay determined. It will be okay.

We are all right behind you. x
 
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Hey Punch.

Hun, I'm so sorry this has happened - but it HAS - and we can get past it.

(Yes - 'WE' - you have the force of a whole community here behind you.)

You were on course for better health - doing great - and now you've had to brake hard because of this fallen tree in the middle of the road...

Are you going to go home and forget your own journey?

Or find a way around the tree and carry on?

This guy is mentally ill and entirely random. He has no plan or agenda - he's out of control.

You're NOT.

You have targets...goals..plans...and you've been making these things your reality. We are so proud of you.

You can think your way around the obstacle. Relax - you're safe at home - and you won't encounter this guy again.

If it was me, I would be contacting my local MP urgently - they are accessible and more than happy to fight on your behalf. They also have a great deal of clout.

Here's a search engine if you don't know your local MP's name - most run appointment clinics or will respond to emails extremely promptly in my experience.

www.theyworkforyou.com/mp/

The salient points are that your recovery has been set back by two physical attacks and the necessary evacuation of your hospital, interrupting your care. You have received additional trauma and had existing conditions triggered through the hospital not acting sooner.

The negotiation points are that you are suited to an open facility, whereas your attacker is not. You require full assurance that he will be relocated or your own care resumed at another, preferred location. Additional support and therapy is needed to get over the fresh trauma you sustained under the hospital's care.

If you get the backing from your MP, the hospital becomes under scrutiny and they will decide quickly how to channel their efforts to serve their own interests.

Any help you need - I'm here. Just PM.

Meantime - carry on with the routines you had established in hospital. Exercise - give those feet the attention they deserve - none of your goals have changed or been removed.

If you can get practical support and advice at home - talk to your folks. Tell them how well you were doing and explain how this has made you feel.

Punch - there's a way around this fallen tree - and you 'll find it. You are so determined, I know you can get your head straight again. Your attacker was mentally ill and totally irresponsible. That's not who YOU are. Poor soul might never have the opportunities you have. Don't think of this in personal terms - he's just an obstruction on your journey. Any emotion you waste on him is draining the energy that was being channelled towards your own future.

Have a good sleep. Stay determined. It will be okay.

We are all right behind you. x
Great sound advice Lunar Lady (y) none of this happened in my day, you was soon jabbed and knocked out, locked in a room and was on constant watch away from other patients :)
 
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Thanks for your inspirational story
 
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didnt post last night i spent the night with my dad talking/watching tv i was worried i regressed because the day previous just layed in bed i think it took a lot out of me dealing with that other patient attacking me 2 times in 24 hours i feel better i know what i need to do. i have not being working out or going for walks which i find problematic. but everyone deserves a break right ? i will be back on it on Tuesday revitalised
 
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as they said at that dwp tribunal you haven't been in hospital for a long time, since i've been in hospital, there was that mental health act requiring them to take in patients they used to consider untreatable and the crisis in mental health means people only go in in total meltdown

i remember highcroft been damned by the hospital inspectors shortly after i left, highcroft an old old bin. it was political to justify care in the community, now bbc shows abuse at places that have passed inspection recently

i wouldn't feel safe in one of the modern bins, maybe i should be a good boy and take meds
 
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i still feel like suicide is inevitable for me nothing anyone can say will change that i will ride out this hospital but i am sure i will end my life once i leave thats how i feel
 
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you can have a far better life outside that hospital, when i considered suicide i just thought about the thug who'd threatened to kill me
 
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Did nothing today these are the things i did do:
brush teeth in the morning/floss/whiten in the morning and at night
made breakfast

The list of things are so long of the things i didnt do:
go for a walk 1 to 2 hours
have a wash
lift weights
get hair cut
revise poker theory books
revise abacus
do beauty routine i do in the morning and at night
read a book and write notes on it
get weighed
didnt visit the tattoo artist i intended to go see on friday
didnt tidy room
did not wash clothes
did not do exercises for my feet to get better
did not make my lunch or dinner

i dont know why i bother i really think its best to die i am considering it hopefully this will pass but i have been under immense stress i touched over in previous posts and threads i made maybe this will be a short lived downswing
 
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Please dont hurt yourself. Could you get funding for college?
 
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Did nothing today these are the things i did do:
brush teeth in the morning/floss/whiten in the morning and at night
made breakfast

The list of things are so long of the things i didnt do:
go for a walk 1 to 2 hours
have a wash
lift weights
get hair cut
revise poker theory books
revise abacus
do beauty routine i do in the morning and at night
read a book and write notes on it
get weighed
didnt visit the tattoo artist i intended to go see on friday
didnt tidy room
did not wash clothes
did not do exercises for my feet to get better
did not make my lunch or dinner

i dont know why i bother i really think its best to die i am considering it hopefully this will pass but i have been under immense stress i touched over in previous posts and threads i made maybe this will be a short lived downswing
you seem to have done more than me by brushing your teeth in itself, i don't do much on these drugs i get 4 points on the dwp pip scale on the grounds i have to be prompted to wash
 
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Please dont hurt yourself. Could you get funding for college?
i went to college also it is pointless to go if i already went plus if i cant handle it due to mental health problems seems like a massive waste of my time and by college i assume you mean the eqivelent to university ? why would i get 27k in debt then not even finish the course then not be able to find a job ? in the field i trained for ?
 
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i went to college also it is pointless to go if i already went plus if i cant handle it due to mental health problems seems like a massive waste of my time and by college i assume you mean the eqivelent to university ? why would i get 27k in debt then not even finish the course then not be able to find a job ? in the field i trained for ?
know the feeling, but facing shit like that is part of what makes life worth living. i agree totally about college
 
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